☁︎tiny mind☁︎

☁︎chapter 1☁︎

yoongi let out a shakey breath. he was sitting alone in the dorm bathroom, hugging his knees, trying to calm down the panic attack he was having. outside the door, he could hear the other members playing video games
they always got too competitive and were shouting loudly. the anxious boy was sensitive to all the loud noise and had felt himself slipping. so he excused hinself to the bathroom, where he collapsed into panic attack straight away. after a particularly loud roar from the boys, yoongi slammed his hands on his ears and held back a yelp.

'calm down yoongi,deep breathes'
he muttered to himself, burying his head deeper into his arms and sobbing silently. his attacks were getting more and more frequent- due to the amount of stress related to the groups comeback. he had been working out and producing music 24/7 and had reached his breaking point. the worst of it was that none of bangtan knew, he was too afraid to ask for a break or some help so he hid all his feelings and let them out privately.

yoongi pov

i stood up and started to pace the small room, stimming my arms and blinking away tears. i can do this. its okay. nothing to worry about. i dabbed my eyes with tissue and splashed cold water on my face. sighing, i opened the door and stepped into the living room.
they boys were all facing the tv. namjoon and jin on the couch, jungkook on the floor between jins legs, and jimin and taehyung sitting on beanbags.

'oh hey yoongi, you were gone for a while, you ok?' their leader namjoon asked, still focused on the game (that he was losing miserably at)
i took a deep breath and faced him, faking a smile.
'mhm yeah im just tired, dont worry about it hyung'
i made sure my voice sounded convincing and strong, as if i hadn't been crying.

when they were all back to shouting, i quietly slipped away to the room me and jin hyung shared. i dove into the blanket and almost immediately fell asleep. it had been a long day, too long, so sleep was needed desperately.

no ones pov

(back in the living room)

'JIMIN WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT'
taehyung yelled as jimin overtook him right before he was going to win the race.
they boys laughed as his outraged face and jimins mischievous grin.
'what can i say hyung? im just too good at the game' he said teasingly, glancing at the elder boy and subtly winking at him.
tae blushed and looked down, smiling. flustered. he and jimin had been secretly dating for a week now. they wanted to tell the others. they really did. but they were scared. relationships werent often talked about as a group. so in the meantime they snuck around. stealing privite kisses and make out sessions, holding hands under tables. it made them feel young and inlove. heck they were. and it was divine.

'pft youre all just fighting for second place, ive got the most points'
hoseok exclaimed, pointing at the leaderboard. jungkook rolled his eyes at him, complaining bitterly to himself that if he had scored 2 more points then he would have been the one in first place.

'hey has anyone seen yoongi?'
bangtan looked around, realizing that one of their members was indeed, not here.
'he probably went to bed, you know how he is'
jin said, tidying away the games and pulling everyone up.
'come on, its late and we have early practice tomorrow'
they all groaned and shrugged off to their beds.
namjoon chuckled at their attitude, and after he checked all the lights were off, he too settled down for the night.

author note

so-
how do we like it so far?
im not too sure about it honestly but im hoping it will get better as the plot starts going