Epic Love

Chapter 3

                              Don't leave me

My heart which was racing suddenly slows. I could've sworn it had stopped beating for a second. She thinks we're broken?

"What makes you say that," I ask. My voice thick and laced with emotions comes out cracked

She looks me dead in the eyes and says

"Because Serkan, I'm tired"

I laugh, my voice fills the room. She said she was tired so why am I laughing? I have indeed lost my mind

"If you're tired go and grab your things then we'll go home and you can go to sleep"

She shakes her head

"No Serkan! I'm not that kind of tired. This is something sleep can't fix"

"I said I was sorry Eda! So I'll say it again. I'm sorry I hurt you"

"Sorry just isn't enough Serkan. I need more than that!"

"Okay, what more do you want huh? What do you want from me? First, you give your shares to the company away, then you announce that you're leaving Art Life without discussing it with me first and then you say you're leaving Istanbul! I tell you that my memories are back, that I remember and it's still not good enough for you!" I yell. My patience has finally reached its peak. I'm fuming now

𝐄𝐃𝐀'𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕:

"I WANT MORE SERKAN! I WANT YOU TO SHOW ME SOMETHING. ANYTHING!" I scream at him

I'm getting so frustrated

"Because to me, it feels like you have no desire to talk about what's happened" I yell

"Oh yeah? and what's happened exactly?"

He asks as if he doesn't already know!

"Oh, i don't know. let's start with the fact that for those 2 months that you were "missing" I air quote "that you're mother knew that you were alive and never told me! or how about the fact that you never contacted anyone to say that you were okay or in order! no even better how about the fact that you finally show up out of nowhere and not alone but hand in hand with SELIN!" I'm screaming now because I'm angry she makes me angry. I know I shouldn't give her the time of day but she annoys me. "even better why not talk about the fact that you proposed to SELIN!" I yell and take a few confident steps towards him

"Wait a minute, okay! Yes, I proposed to her but you don't actually think I was going to go through with it, do you? I was eventually going to get my memories back"

"Yes, I did believe that you would marry her because you wouldn't have proposed to her otherwise!"

"Take a breath, Eda. You can't blame this on me!" Now it was his turn to shout

𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐊𝐀𝐍'𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕:

I know I shouldn't be shouting at her. but she's got this all wrong, she's blaming me for something that was out of my control

"Why not Serkan?!" she yells

"You should have never gotten on that plane. If you had stayed, we would have been married by now and not here arguing"

"I know Eda, I know! But I left anyway"

"Yes you did Serkan and because of that, you lost your memories. OUR memories!" She says making sure to emphasize the "our"

"Eda, you can't blame this on me!" I shout, before continuing "If I had known something like this would happen do you think I would have gone? Me losing my memories was not my fault!"

She refuses to look at me anymore. my anger doesn't subside it only intensifies

"We can't work through our problems if you aren't willing to try!"

"I am willing to try Serkan. I'm just angry right now"

"Then talk to me! Tell me what's on you're mind"

"Do you really want to know?!" she asks as she abruptly turns to face me

I know that look... I can officially say that this woman, my woman scares the crap out of me!

𝐄𝐃𝐀'𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕:

"I'm so angry right now! I want you to endure the pain that I felt when you were gone, I want you to lose your mind just like I did, I want you to go crazy as I did! I want you to feel what I felt!"

I can't help the tears that fall. I hate crying, I don't like it when people see me cry, especially him! out of frustration, I look around for something to break. my eyes find a glass cup and pick it up.

I throw it at the wall behind Serkan.

"We're damaged Serkan! we can't be fixed!"  I say and continue "not this time" I whisper

Tears are still pouring down my face and before I know it Serkan pulls me into a hug. Wrapping his arms around me. Coaxing me to calm down and relax

"Shh, calm down baby. Relax okay?" he says in a soothing voice

I slowly begin to relax in his arms on instinct. Soon I've calmed down and my heart rate has started to slow. It's quiet now. Not an uncomfortable silence though.

"Serkan look, I have to go," I say finally breaking the silence

Serkan stops rubbing my back. He pulls away searching my face as if my eyes will give him the answer to his yet to be asked question

"Where are you going?" he asks

"To the airport Serkan. I'm leaving" I say as I step back and wipe my eyes

"What do you mean you're leaving! You can't leave me Eda!" he says through gritted teeth

"I have to Serkan and I will" I don't give him a chance to say anything else I just push past him heading for the door

My hand was inches away from the door handle

"NO!" he shouts. His voice roars throughout the room making me stop dead in my tracks. I've never heard him raise his voice that loud before. A shiver runs up my spine

I hear a loud thud hit the floor and whirl around...