talking to myself

040921

hello again, those of you looking for my things after i have become a hero of my times.

it has now been past a full year since the world has been overcome by a deadly virus.

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i have a cat now, but i will not reveal their name because even though they're a cat, who knows, maybe they want their identity hidden, as well.

they're very sweet and kind of sassy, but nonetheless a very great friend.

i can see outside the window through the reflection of the laptop i'm writing on, and it's strange to me how the branches bear bright green leaves and the sky is no longer a pale, dead gray, but a vibrant blue.

it's almost as if i've forgotten what spring is like, but here it comes as an annual reminder.

it's much nicer than winter's view, so that's something.

anyway, it's spring break as of now, and there are only a couple days left of it.

i probably should have spent more time studying and preparing for final and ap exams, but i didn't touch a single work-related thing this entire week, save for adobe illustrator to post about education on social media for a campaign project currently underway in ap government.

i also have to proctor myself as i take an exam that will measure my strengths and weaknesses when in comes to the sat and act, and i think i was supposed to do that today, but will now put it off til tomorrow.

my sleep schedule has been irreversibly damaged, as well, and i now sleep in the late hours of night, the latest being tonight, when i put my book down at exactly 2:40 am.

and then i added a few paragraphs to one of my stories and practically collapsed into sleep at 3.

so, if i have become a hero of my times, i certainly wasn't anyone's role model at this stage in life, now was i.

i finished that book today and have been contemplating its bittersweet ending for a few hours now.

that is my only weakness when it comes to writing: i don't know how not to have a happy ending.

no matter how evil, deranged, disgusting, and low a character is, i cannot bring myself to kill them, and i am certainly not capable of an ending that involves the death of a character, or anything irreversible.

i also forgot it was usd today (which stands for Universe Selca Day), and i've been here trying to pass the time while my ipad charges so that i can get to work on drawing a selca instead of posting my face on the internet.

(although if i really did become a hero of my times, which i know you're getting sick of reading about, my face would be everywhere... but not now.)

i think it should have more than enough charge by now; in fact, i probably should have started a while ago, so i think i will now.

until next time, which may or may not be another five months.