Forever, You and I

what did i do to deserve this

Before I start writing reminder this is GOF ERA!! DON'T FORGET THAT!!
also the italicized parts are flashbacks or like re-accruing thoughts also song sign of the times by harry styles

Halle Carter

It was a dark rainy depressing day I was sitting on my bed watching the rain pour out of the sky. I tried hard to whelve up my past as much as I could but I just couldn't no matter how hard I tried it always came back to me.

I looked outside again. I've always loved the rain especially on days when i'm sad cause i'll look outside and see it's raining almost as if the sky is crying with me.

What did I do to deserve this.

The question I keep asking myself it's been three whole days since anyone has talked to me well except for Kennedy because she has never left my side.

3 days earlier

She read the letter....

Ginny knew who the Monroe's are and she knew that we were sending them letters but now she has this power inside of her. One wrong move and Elijah and I are done for she will tell the whole entire school.

"Halle!" a familiar voice called out I turn around and face him, he's angry he's storming straight towards me and has the daily prophet in his hand.

"So when we're you going to tell me huh?" he was angry and he didn't even have to say anything his facial expressions said it all. "Ron it's not as easy to tell you something like this" I said trying to stay strong "we could have talked about it Hal. You didn't have to keep this from me" he was shouting "Ron i'm sorry you don't understand" I spoke softy.

He clearly wasn't having it so he walked away from me angrier then ever.

Present time

He's still pretty mad at me though he's been ignoring me. In class. In the halls. At dinner. I didn't know what to say for him to forgive me I didn't know what to do.

Ginny turned everyone on Elijah on I we lost all of our friends but at least I still have Kennedy.

"Halle I don't care why you were sending letters to the Monroe's and I don't care as to why you didn't turn them in all I care about is you and your well being. Don't listen to Ginny she's just doing this to try and stay relevant I will always be here if you need to talk you don't have to tell me anything on how you know them that doesn't matter to me."

She's the only thing I have right now and sometimes Elijah but he's handling things on his own. Kennedy has been comforting these past few days even missing time to hang out with Cedric but he was totally understandable as to why she kept standing him up but he made friends with Elijah and wanted to see if he was doing ok.

What did I do to deserve this.

That same sentence keeps playing in my head then I remember.

"What is wrong with you! You're so useless what are you even good for!" Jennifer Monroe screamed at me "She's just as dumb as the other one they don't know how to do anything!" Oscar Monroe yelled.

"I'm trying" I said as tears rolled down my eyes "well you're clearly not trying hard enough!"

what did I do to deserve this.

I finally got up and grabbed a jumper and left my dorm. I walked down the cold corridors I walked past Ron but as soon as he saw me he gave me a dirty look and walked away. I walked outside and my feet hit the soaked muddy grass and rain droplets hit my face and my hair and got my clothes wet. I saw down just stared into the dark sky, Kennedy trailed behind me and sat down next to me and I ladies my head on her shoulder and we didn't speak a word.

For once in my life I felt alone even though Kennedy was sitting right next to me I felt alone.

The whole world felt still like time stopped moving I was getting no where in trying to get all of my friends back. This whole experience made me realize that I only have one real friend and that's Ken my other 'friends' would have been there for me in this time of need even Ron I feel so betrayed I feel like, no I know everyone hates me.

I needed to put something to the test though I whispered into Kennedy's ear telling her how I knew the Monroe's I wanted to see if she would actually stay with me. Her eyes widened and took a long breath.

"I don't care Hal, I've told you this you didn't have to tell me I will always be here for you I don't care as long as you're ok." she spoke I was so grateful to have her in my life. I was fine until I heard that then I stared to cry again.

She hugged me and ran her fingers through my soaking wet hair and rubbed my back with her other hand.

I was tired of moping around and feeling all sorry for myself so I decided that I needed to do something about that so I went to go find Ron I had no idea where he could possibly be right now but I'm going to find him and make things right. I looked a mess my hair was all tangled and frizzy and my clothes were soaking wet from the rain but that was the least of my problems right now.

I walked around the cold corridors to find Ron but he was no where to be seen. I kept on waking and turning my head different directions only to see people giving me dirty looks.

I don't know why everyone is so mad they don't even know the full story I beg if they actually knew they still probably wouldn't sympathize. It's not like I need their pity or their sympathy.

Then I finally found him sitting by himself in the great hall playing wizard chess with himself. I sat in front of him "need another player?" I asked that didn't work he just took his stuff and left "Ron" I called out "Ron, please come back" I was getting fed up at this point that he was ignoring me "Ronald bilius weasly you get back here right now and listen to me!" I screamed that sure caught his attention because he came to an abrupt stop I started to walk towards him but he didn't turn around "Ron I just want you to hear me out and listen to me we're gonna get nowhere if you don't talk to me" I placed my hand on his shoulder then he said something I couldn't even imagine.

"What if I don't want to get anywhere" he said his words so soft yet so deadly those words felt like a dagger to the heart. I couldn't go through this again no, no I can't go through this again "Ron..." I said barely even speaking he walked away without saying anything else my hand fell to my side and I was destroyed but sometimes, crying is the only way your your eyes could speak when your mouth can explain how broken your heart is. I sat down on one of the chairs and just cried.

What did I do to deserve this...?