-About a year later-
“Everyone regrets something, which is funny because we are the ones who chose to do what we now regret. Looking back on everything even the stuff that was a year away I don’t regret it anymore because it brought me here, you shouldn’t regret the chances you take but the ones you didn’t because they could have been.” I told the interviewer he nodded as if he knew exactly what I meant.
“Your very smart for someone so young. Thanks for joining me today have a lovely tour!” he stood up and shook my hand before I left. I walked to my car in a bit of a daze I really no longer regretted Justin that was a year ago now I had moved on I was in a relationship, I was happy…but no I would have been happier with him. My phone rang in my pocket.
“Hi,” I said absently.
“Hey Kendall umm we need to talk,” Dominic’s voice echoed through me. “Can you come over?”
“Yeah I’ll be there in five,” I replied getting in my car. Dominic was my current boyfriend he was a bit different then the guys I normally dated he was ‘high class’ as in wore a suit everyday because he worked in a law firm, had not an ounce of ink on his skin, always had his hair perfect. He would have been the perfect guy in anyone’s books except mine. I walked up to the door of his loft and knocked quietly. Dominic opened the door with a solemn look on his face.
“Hey Kendall, umm so I need to tell you something,” he said not looking me in the eye.
“Go ahead,” I responded feeling at complete ease even though I knew what was coming next.
“We need to break up, you’re not the right girl for me. I need someone more laid back someone better for my image I mean the guys at the firm…” he trailed on.
“I understand, your high class I’m punk rock we don’t mix,” he looked shocked that I was agreeing with him.
“It’s just the tattoos and the whole you know rock band thing, we had a good run but…you were always to much for me. You are a free spirit and well I’m not.” Dominic continued I gave him a hug and kissed him on the cheek.
“Not a problem Dom, like you said it was fun while it lasted. I hope you find a girl who fits your life better then I did,” I said as I went to leave.
“There will always be a part of my heart that belongs to you,” Dominic called after me.
“There doesn’t have to be any room for me in there, it’s a waste of space,” I said to him a small grin creeping across his face.
“Goodbye Dominic,” I said closing the door. I waited till I was in my car to cry, I didn’t want him to see me break down. I felt inspired by the end of it and ended up in the studio with my guitar strung over my back and started to play.
“Everything okay?” I heard someone ask I quickly turned around and saw Kellin.
“Hmm?” I asked scribbling down some more words. “No not really,” I admitted as he sat beside me looking over my lyrics.
“He misses you, talks about you everyday…”Kellin said watching me closely.
“I know I’ve gotten every message…kept them all,” I sighed and looked over at Kellin. “I miss him to, but that wont change a thing.”
“That’s what I’ve been telling him, he really fucked up.” Kellin admitted. “Can I stick around while you write?” he asked hopefully.
“Of course!” I said as I continued to write. Kellin and I stayed a few more hours writing and then finally I decided to go home. I walked up to my apartment building and there he was sitting in front of my door. I turned around to leave but I couldn’t.
“Kendall wait!” Justin spoke in a panic.
“Please leave, I don’t want to do this,” I begged him feeling tears form in my eyes.
“I need you in my life, I was an idiot who jumped to conclusion. Fuck I should have known better, but I misjudged and now I’ve been regretting it everyday.” Justin’s voice was shaky. “But I don’t regret that night because it was with you, I wish I would have known it sooner. Kendall I still love you.”
“I love you to but that can’t change anything!” I felt myself beginning to break down Justin pulled me in. “Don’t! Okay just don’t I can’t do this again.” My voice was shaky.
“I wish I could take back everything,” Justin said letting go of me.
“Some things we can never take back…now please I really need you to leave,” I said abruptly but I didn’t move closer to my door I moved closer to him as if by instinct my lips met his but I pushed away. “I-I didn’t mean to do that!” I quickly said slipping inside my apartment. I watched threw the peephole waiting for him to leave but he sat down in front of the door.
“I’m glad it happened though,” Justin whispered I slumped down on the other side of the door letting out quite sobs I wish we never messed this up.
