>End of tour two months later<
Justin hadn’t talk to me in two months it was horrible I didn’t know what to do, and whenever I tried to tell him that I miscarried he ignored me because he thought I aborted the baby. I felt terrible because there was so much tension between him and I at the moment and all the bands were feeling it. Kellin tried talking to him numerous times but Justin was just being stubborn. It was time for the last show and the boys and me were up.
“Hi guys so glad to see you all!” I said as the crowd cheered. “So we were thinking seeing its our last show we would sing a new song is that okay with all of you?” I asked excitedly the crowd screamed louder then ever and then we began. “it sounds something like this,
You probably hate me by now
Too much time has passed and you still haven’t figured the truth out
So believe what you must
I’m fed up
My heart is still in love with you
But my mind wants to say horrible things to you
Scream and say look at the hell you put me through
I’m sorry but I fucking hate to love you
Why didn’t you just listen
Wouldn’t that have been better?
But you stormed out gave up on me now
No one understands
What the fuck happened
My heart is still in love with you
But my mind wants to say horrible things to you
Scream and say look at the hell you put me through
I’m sorry but I fucking hate to love you
How do you feel about me?
All you do is look at me disgustedly
But why don’t you listen
Then you would here the reason
And see you just jumped to another conclusion
I’m sorry it happened
Id take it back if I could
Rewind months in the past take it all back
But we cant
My heart is still in love with you
But my mind wants to say horrible things to you
Scream and say look at the hell you put me through
I’m sorry but I fucking hate to love you
“I hope you guys liked it! We are so happy to be here tonight enjoy the rest of the show and remember you are all beautiful!” I said as we ran off stage then the boys of mice and men came on. Justin came over to me looking angry.
“What the fuck was that?” he demanded.
“Music that’s what the fucking was!” I snorted back at him.
“Don’t fucking write songs about me!” he yelled.
“Someone’s a bit conceited who said it was fucking about you?” I asked my voice creaking as I did.
“It was obviously about me and we both know it!” he demanded. Storming off. “We will continue this fight later!” I watched them do there set every now and then Kellin would look over at me and nod making my stomach tie into more knots.
“Time to talk!” Justin said walking off stage.
“It wasn’t what you thought, and if I had done it do you really think you would have ever found out?” I asked him my voice stern.
“What was I supposed to think?” he asked his voice tense.
“You were supposed to let me explain so I wouldn’t get fucking tired of you acting like a douche!” I retorted.
“Explain it to me then,” Justin said.
“I lost the baby when I was in the accident,” the words stung as they escaped my mouth.
“I’m, I’m sorry I didn’t think of that,” Justin’s voice was quite. I stood up.
“No you didn’t because you jumped to conclusion breaking my heart, so I’m glad this tour is over because then I don’t have to face what could have been everyday,” my voice was stern as I turned away, I walked away quickly as I let out silent sobs.
“Kendall I’m so sorry!” Justin yelled after me.
“No, it’s to late for that,” I said slamming the door to my bus because it was.
