Unspoken Words Of An Ambivert

Love, and how it's different

3/4/2021

The love I feel for you is different than any other love i've felt

My first love was like child's play, it was fun, easy.

We broke up after he dumped me, which was fine. I was fine after, it didn't hurt too bad. I loved him in the way I knew best, and he loved me in the way he knew best. This love wasn't love, it was infatuation.

My second love ended in trauma, trust issues, and emotions.

I was so upset with him for manipulating me and using me, he gave me so many trust issues by the end and I had so many emotions I wasn't able to comprehend at that moment.

But you helped me through it. I'm still healing from it, i'll probably need to go to therapy for this to fully help once I'm older, but you've helped me as best as you can

And I am grateful to you for that.

You've taught me that trust in a relationship has to be earned as the relationship goes on, I can't just trust somebody straight away.

You've taught me that I need to show more respect towards myself and I need to stop being so passive towards everything and start having an actual opinion.

You are my third love. You are the love that i've learned from the most and have had the most growth, you've scared me the most as well as taught me so many different things

But I'm afraid to admit that I'm in love with you. Loving somebody and being in love with somebody are two different things, and I've learned this from you.

Saying I love you just tells you that I have feelings for you.

Saying I'm in love with you says that I'll be by your side through anything, saying that I can trust you with anything, as well as saying that I love you more passionately and with more emotion.

Saying I'm in love with somebody has been more important to me since I met you, and I love you. I love you in a way I've never loved before, and I'm scared. I'm scared but excited for you and I.