Only Us (Am I Normal Yet? Continuation)

Chapter 1: After The Book

AN: the plot line and what is written is now mine, only the characters and stuff are not mine, they belong to Holly Bourne. Enjoy :)

After I messaged Oli, I must have read it and reread it a million times. So much so that my phone got confiscated by my Mum. She was worried I was falling into obsessive and upsetting habits. I wasn't. I think. I got it back eventually but Oli still hadn't responded. I didn't like being this invested in a boy , one I'd been out with before at that. It was putting a damper on my feminist ways as Amber and Lottie would say.

The Spinster Club is still going strong. One day, we are going to change the world. Amber and Lottie came to visit me all the time and we saw each other every day at college. They are the best friends a girl could have. Even Jane is getting better at being a friend, I like her more without Joel.

It's been weeks since I was released from hospital, but now I've got to start from the beginning again. Full medication dosage, therapy twice a week. Everything seems so pointless. After the first message I decided to send Oli a follow-up message apologising for what happened on our last date. I apologised for being weird about his parents being there. I apologised for not staying to make sure he was okay. I apologised for not telling him the real reason why I didn't talk to him again. I apologised for leaving him to assume I thought he was a weirdo. I told him I wanted to explain why but it would make much more sense in person. From then on, I messaged him a bit every day, mainly talking about my day and asking about his. He didn't message me back.
The Bad Thoughts began to take over.
BAD THOUGHT
What if you upset him so badly he'll never recover? You're a terrible person.
WORSE THOUGHT
He probably hates you. He won't reply.
WORST THOUGHT
Is this a relapse? Are you going crazy again?