Here Comes Goodbye

Chapter Three

So today is my last day of break! I'm like dying on the inside. But I want school. I miss my friends. For you few who read this that means I might not upload until the weekend because I have competition cheerleading practice two days in a row! That will be hell.

Oh and this chapter maybe longer then the others. It also is a very important chapter to this book. I had an extremely hard time writing it because I am trying to get the pain Cami feels to you guys.its really hard because I am using kinda self experiences but kinda not. I have never turned to what Cami does, but I have bought about it.

I have a rant for you guys though. If you call your self fans or directioners then you wouldn't be giving Harry hate for who he is with! I can't stand who he is with, but I'm not gonna hate him for that. I will always love him. We have to remember he has feelings. He isn't made of this unbreakable metal. He is only 18 year old! I swear if I see anyone on here or twitter I will personally hurt you. Harry is my baby;) I will protect him and defend him as much as I can!!

Btw you guys can follow me on twitter @Jackie_Mackiee

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For the first time, in a while, I actually got myself ready. Since Dare passed away, I haven't cared to get myself ready. Even for his funeral I didn't get myself ready. His sister came and did everything for me. I want to know how she is stronger then me. Not only is only fourteen, but she is his blood. I was merely his love. I look up to that girl. Last I heard she has been doing good. His family is slowly recovering. They are living for Dare, unlike me.

Looking into the mirror to do my hair and make up, I seen what everyone has been shocked about. My usually bright green eyes are a dull grey-green. The happiness that once shown through them is none existent.

Trying to distract myself, I work on my hair. It has dried into perfect chestnut beach waves. Dare always said he loved my hair better natural then straightened. The tears rim my eyes but I stop them. Not today. I can't cry today. I need to be strong.

I take my side bangs and pin them to the right of my head. I make it do a small bump. Then I start to outline my eyes with black eyeliner. Once my eyes are outlined to perfection, I put sliver eyeshadow on my lids. I finish with a quick swipe of mascara. I can't believe I use to do this everyday. My looks use to mean the world to me. I use to thinking had to keep my looks up so girls new they couldn't compete with me for Dare.

I stare at my reflection and notice how unalike Liam and I actually look. Liam has the cute puppy dog brown eyes while I use to have the bright green look at me eyes. Our hair is sorta the same color but with his cut you can't see his curls. I think our hair is the only thing we have in common. Dare use to swear I was adopted. Damn! Everything reminds me of him!

"Don't cry," I tell myself for the billionth time today.

Walking into my now empty closet, I grab the only clothes left hanging. A pair of Hollister shorts, a black cami, and a white v-neck that says Hollister. I finish the look with a pair of white rainbows. (Brand of flip flops)

I guess it's not that hard to get ready without Him constantly trying to get me back in bed. I can remember the times he would be home and I would have school. He would lay in bed with his sexy abs on show and give me that knowing smirk. Then when I would refuse to come to bed he would chase me around the condo. Once he caught me he would push me against his bare chest and start to tickle me. Stop!! I'm gonna cry if I keep thinking about him.

I stop mid way down my hallway.

"You guys looked happy." His deep voice said.

"We were," I told him.

I tore my eyes from the picture to see the Harry Styles causally standing against my doorway. We stare attach other for a good minute until I am attacked.

"Cami! You are finally up! I missed you!" Niall yelled while giving me a famous Horan hug.

His hug brings a small ghostly smile to my lips. This boy is my best friend. He always cheers me up. Where have you been Niall for the past month? He is the only person that is ever brave enough to try and make me smile no matter what mood I am in.

" I missed you too." I told him in a whisper.

He quickly lets go and runs to my kitchen. Niall will be disappointed when he sees no food. I haven't really bothered to eat. Great another person I have disappointed. That's all I do. I look down at my feet in shame. Dare should be alive not me.

"Hey don't cry," his soft, deep, raspy voice said.

I couldn't help but to jump when ever his skin came in contact with mine. He gently grabbed my chin to make me look him in the eyes. Slowly I get lost in his gaze. He has always had this power over me since I met him when my brother auditioned for X factor.

"And what is going on here." Louis said startling me.

Then I realized Harry and I had leaned in and were very close to kissing. Once again I look at my feet. Dare has been gone for a month and I'm already kissing another guy. I need to remember him and his love is all I will ever have and need.

"CamCam, you alright?" Louis asked in that adorable curious voice of his.

Both his and Harry's gaze burned a hole in me. They are waiting for an answer. My head starts to raise. I give both of their gazes a glance before focusing on the picture behind them. It was one of my very favorites. Dare stood with his formal military uniform on and I stood in a deep violet evening gown. We both stared into each others eyes. The picture was of us heading to my junior prom. A prom that was only four months ago. The picture and everything else became blurry.

"No," I whisper to answer Louis. "I'm far from alright."

Then I ran past the and out the door. I ignore the hollers of my mane. Nothing even processed through my head, but one thing. My knees hit the freshly laid sod. My sobs rack my body.

"Dare, I can't do this! I need you! I'm going to be with you!" I screamed through my sobs.

I reached in my bra and pulled out my haven. I rolled it in my hands.the reflection it showed was a broken girl. The handle felt right. This was meant to be.

"Soon baby," I whispered.

It shot through my body. It felt like hot water boiling water was poured on my body and I liked it. It made me remember him. I watched as the red hit Derick's picture.

Heavy foot falls were coming my way.

"Cami!" A panicked voice called.

I didn't acknowledge it. The only thing I was focused on was the pain.

"Cameron! Oh my gosh! Liam! Zayn! Get help!" A voiced yelled.

Arms wrapped around me as tan hands with some cloth held on to my escape. I look up into deep brown eyes. He is preventing me from seeing Dare! I started to thrash around.

"Don't help me! I'm going where I belong! Let me go to hell!" I screamed.

The tears were uncontrollable just like my screams. Why must my life be so damn complicated? My head started to become light. My screams died down as my breathing started to become shirt and shallow.

"Stay with us!" My poor brother yelled.

Another whispered, "Don't give up. He wouldn't want you to."

Those where the last words I heard as my work turned black. Maybe I got my wish. I'm coming baby.

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