Here Comes Goodbye

Chapter Two

Great news!!!!!!!! I'm gonna update this now instead of mid-Janurary! Although I'm kinda having mix feelings right now. I am happy that Harry is happy with Taylor but come on any fan wishes she was the reason for his happiness. It's hard to be all I ship them if you want him as your own. Trustee I know!!

Anyways I guess I am gonna just have to suck it up because I can't even get him to simply follow me on twitter. Heck I can't even get to 100 follower!! Sad I know! Oh well just gonna have to live on!

Welp, here's the story guys and btw it's gonna be kinda short. And I'm sorry about that they will get longer I promise just please don't hate me for the shortness I already hate my writing for it. I like long chapters!!!!

Alright I'll shut up now!

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The door to my condo opens. I can hear the person try to close the door quietly. It doesn't matter if they were quiet or not I am awake. I haven't slept one bit. Crying all night does that to you. I don't really bother moving to see who it it. I know for a fact it's Liam. He is the only one who has a key and he texted me that he was coming over to check on me.

Rolling to the other pillow the tears leak out of my eyes. The pillow still smells like Derick. A month ago he was laying here with me. We would be cuddling or laughing. We would just be together. I hold on to his dog tags. It is one of the only things of him I have left.

My bed dips as if someone sat down. I don't roll over because I don't want anybody to see me like this. Especially my brother. I told him I would be strong but I can't do it. My heart wishes it was Dare who was behind me, but my mind knows it isn't and will never be.

"Cami," He sighed.

That sigh kills me, but I can't help not to care. I am the one who is in pain not him. He hasn't lost his lover. How I envy him. Liam rubs my back as I cry some more. I try to be quiet about it, but that doesn't work. You would think I would be an expert at crying silently with all the crying I have been doing. Before this ever happened you would never catch me crying.

"I know this is gonna sound crazy, but I think you should come back to England with me." Liam said in a soothing older brother voice.

Slowly, I sit up to face him. I feel bad that I have to hurt him. I know it hurts him when he sees me like this. Anytime I cry, I cry to my brother. He is my rock. Now more then ever since my other rock has returned to the ground.

"Liam, I can't. He is here!" I cried.

I threw myself into him. For the first time I finally cry with someone. Someone finally cries with me. I'm not alone for once. But yet I still feel alone.

Alter who knows how long of crying I heard people come in my room. I didn't bother removing myself from my brother's hold. I needed him right now.

"How is she?" I heard a soft voice ask.

Liam let out a deep sigh. It was so deep I felt it move my entire body. He quickly rubbed my back. I think he thinks I finally went to sleep. Yeah that's not happening. When I sleep I see Him.

"She cried to me, Lou. Never have I seen her this bad." Liam explained to Louis in a hushed tone. His voice was full of sadness.

"Liam, she lost the man she loved. Of course she will break. Even strong, stubborn Cami has to break sometime." Louis tells Liam as if he knows all. Though, he was spot on in his answer.

I shouldn't be doing this. I am hurting everyone around, but I am also hurting myself. Dare wouldn't want this. I know he would want me to be happy. He always said and I quote, "I never want you to cry over my death. I want you to be proud of what I died for. And I want you to smile even though it will hurt, but do it. Or I will haunt your sexy little ass."

Well, I guess he is horrible at haunting me. Because here I am crying. A smile hasn't been on my lips since before I got that dreadful phone knock on the door. It's just that everything reminds me of him. This was his home too. Maybe I need to go back with Liam.

"I'll come." I said while pulling away from Liam.

Louis gasped whenever he seen me. He's probably shocked at how horrible I look. I can bet any money that he has never even seen me right out of bed. I have always been dressed and pretty looking even if it was in yoga pants.

"Are you sure, Love?" Liam asked me.

For a minute I thought tears would fall once I said this, but I stayed strong.

"Yes, I need to move on in life. I don't need or want to but I have to. It doesn't mean I'll forget him. It just means that I will live and be happy for the both of us."

Yeah too bad that was way easier said then done. My life will never be the same. No matter how hard I try to make it the same, it won't be. Dare won't be there. He will always be gone.

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This is dedicated to @w1_Derful for being the first person to comment on here. I am going to start doing that for now on. The person to first comment on the chapter will get the dedication to the next chapter. Now I want to explain that this story will be sad for a bit. You don't just get over a death in a snap of you fingers. It takes time and it is a process but I promise it won't always be sad. There will be good happy funny moments in here just give it time!

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