Here Comes Goodbye

Chapter Five ( a month later...)

Hey guys! So, recently someone has gave me comments to my chapter and it made my day! So, I'm uploading for her:)

I should be asleep since I have to be at my school tomorrow at 6:00 am because I have a cheer competition, but I'll survive!

Hope you guys enjoy this chapter, it is one of my favorites. Also, please don't think just by this chapter she has moved on and shit! Trust me more sadness is to come! I have a serious plan for this book:)

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High pitch screaming wakes me up from my nap. My eyes focus in on the tiny wall with a bus window. Thankfully, the window is covered. I wouldn't want some picture of me looking like shit all over the interned, because knowing the boys fan, they would have that trending in seconds. Though I wouldn't see it. I refuse to check my twitter, because once I get on I have to deactivate Dare's account and I'm not ready for that.

While crawling over to the window, my knees protest. Damn I'm seriously out of shape. I need to get back with my usual work outs. I might get fat. It wouldn't matter though, I have no one to impress. The only person I want to impress can't see any more, so it doesn't really matter.

I move the curtain aside some and see thousands of screaming or crying girls. Why did I have to come on their mini Brit tour? My hand goes to my wrist where I can feel slight lines. Oh yeah that's why.

Standing, stretches my legs, and I can't help the tiny moan of pleasure escape. What is today?

I look at the date and my heart falls to the ground.

July 25th, 2012.

Two months today. My hand leaves my wrist and goes to the chain that hangs on my neck. I look down and see his name ingraved on his dog tags. Tears don't even wait to form before they are falling down my face. Then before I know sobs rack my body.

Who knows how long I was crying before many arms made their self around my small body. They all tried to sooth me. Everyone knew it wouldn't help, but they couldn't just watch me cry. The only person who would sooth me is in another place. He is probably half decayed.

That thought, gives me a mental picture I don't want. I cry even harder.

"Boys, you gotta come do your last sound check." One of the guy's workers said.

Many groans were given. They don't want to leave me. I know they are scared I'm gonna hurt myself again. After a lot of convincing they finally leave. The only reason they are leaving is because I promised to come to tonight's show.

Today of all days they are forcing me to go. It makes no sense to me. The only thing I want to do is cry and try to see Dare.

Once they left I cried and slept most of the day. That's what my medicine does to me. It makes me numb and I like it.

My medicine wore off and I rolled over to grab my phone. I realize I have another three hours before the concert so, I stared at my phone. Should I do it? What if it hurts? Just a peck wouldn't hurt.

I click on the screen and memories were shown on my phone. Pictures. Dare and I looked so happy. We were so stupid. I cry, but I also laugh. One picture made me laugh so hard. It was of Dare trying on my clothes. Lets just say he didn't fit. The last picture I come to is my favorite. We are laying on the ground, at the park, and the sun hits are eyes perfectly as we look up into the camera with huge smiles. It was so old. We took that when we first got together. Dare even still had his skater hair. Man, it's crazy what happens in three years. Why can't I go back to the beginning and relive it all again?