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Same Taste

Someone said 'You need to trying to leave from your comfortable zone, find someone that has different thoughts, mind, behavior, and anything from you. Because of that, you can understand another people'. And now I know why.

That girl; she, my best friend, someone that I close to. Why would it have to be her, from a bunch of my friends why would it be that girl? Someone who loves the same person like me. I cant hate her, or blame her because shes my best friend but, I do hate her sometimes. I cant resist my feeling towards her I want to tell her that bad, but, u know the feelings when you hate someone but you cant say it. I cant wear this disguise every time I met her. Do I need to pretend that Im okay? Like every day? Im sick of it, I really am.

She can get everything what she wants, Im jealous, I just want to have someone that I want no-need- but shes always trying to take that from me and shes always got it, like wtf? Am I that bad? And why from many humans in this world why would we like the same person, that one fuckin person.

'Youre too dramatic' 'she's your fuckin friend, chill' chill my ass, too dramatic? Excuse you? Have you ever had someone who's very close to you and she has the same taste as you? It was so fuckin annoying, because of what? I need to keep my secret by myself and Im a person who cant shut my mouth and if I like no -love- someone, people will be easily know, just because I can get blushed so easily and my behavior towards him is so different.

I dont know what am I saying right now, Im frustrated, my head hurts just to think about it. I do have another guy whos caring about me, but, I want that man, cant I just get it? I have a feeling towards him since that time and so she is.

Fuck about friendship, Im selfish as an ass right now. If she can win his heart, I will totally hate her, Im not gonna tell her about it Im just gonna stay back as far as I can. Childish? Speak as much as you want, do I look like I care? Absolutely not.