Shut it down ( Urban )

I Don't Want You

"Darnesha" a voice said but I wasn't listening. "DARNESHA" the person screamed in my ear.

I quickly jumped back into reality and turned to see who it was. It was Martwan. I forgot we were at his house.

"Damn girl, what's wrong with you ? I know you heard me calling you"

"Nothing...Mybad" I shook my head. I looked down at my perfectly toned legs then back at him.

"Something is wrong, tell me" he layed back on the couch.

"Its nothing Martwan, I'm just thinking. That's all" I assured him shaking my head.

"Igh, ima take your word for it lil mama. " he starred at me for a minute then smirked.

"Baby, have you seen my black lace swimsuit ?!" Rainesha yelled from the upstairs banister.

We are supposed to be going swimming today. I didn't want to go, I'd rather stay home with Rimmey and away from Keisha. But Martesse begged and begged me to come so I just said yes.

I'm still stuck on the kiss the other two nights. After he kissed me I felt different, I felt a lil bit of me change mentality.

I couldn't stop thinking about his lips, the way the felt against mines, how soft they were, how strong they were against mines.

I want more, and more of him.

But I know I never will, I can't let that happen. He doesn't love me like I think I love him. He doesn't want me like I want him either. Nobody ever will.  Guess I'm gonna have to live with that.

"Yop, I threw that motherfucker away" Martwan laughed back.

"Martwan why the fuck would you do that ! That was my favorite one ! Damn" Rainesha yelled and walked back into their bedroom slamming the door.

Martwan sat up and turned to me "You see the shit I gotta deal with ? A damn crybaby. I'll be back" be took a long puff out his blunt then put it out before walking upstairs.

After I heard the door close I stood up and walked to the kitchen. As soon as I walked in I regretted it. There was Kiesha and Martesse licking each others face off, once again.

I tried to walk out quietly but I jammed my toe on the corner of the counter.

"Fuck" I tried to mumble but it came out clear as hell.

Martesse quickly pulled away from Keisha turning towards me.

"Oh shit Darnesha" he giggled a little. "you scared the shit outta me, you good ?" He walked over to me trying  help me stand up correctly but I pulled away from him.

He look confused but shook it off.

"I'm good" I blurted.

He starred at me with this look In his eyes. He knew I was mad at him and he knew exactly why.

"The bitch is good Martesse leave her ass alone now" Keisha blurted.

I coked my head towards her. I'm really tired of that bitch. All she does is talk SHIT about me on a daily bases, no matter what the situation is.