I stare out the window of the parked car
Out at the street, the traffic
What's it like
To die?
Even just for a moment.
I have to work tomorrow
What if I just stepped into traffic
Got squashed like a bug
Maybe it wouldn't hurt
Maybe I'd feel nothing
That's not the way
The driver would blame themselves
Or a bridge over water
No blame
Just me and the ocean forever
My mom will be back soon
If I'm not in the car, she'll worry
I hate making her worry
They say it's the most peaceful way
To drown
My cats are waiting for me at home
I need to take care of them
I can't leave my babies
I just couldn't do that to them
But what if?
