The Winter Soldier and the Blue Phoenix (complete)

The Visions

"What?" Steve asks.

"Y/n has never fully talked about Emily's death," Natasha explains.

You forgot you've only known Steve for about three months and Natasha is the one who trained you from the beginning which was almost four years ago.

"I'm honored to be the first person you opened up about her death," Bucky tells you.

You run to 'your' room to cry. You lay there in the bed, curled up in a ball, crying about her death. You can't help but to.

Natasha walks in.

"Y/n, are you okay?"

You wipe the tears off your face and sniffle, "I'm fine."

"I think those tears coming out of your eyes say something completely different. Talk to me."

She walks over and sits on the edge of the bed.

"It's just, I've never opened up about it. I used to have her, and when I lost her I felt purely alone. An empty void of just darkness. She was my only friend. I felt as though I could just tell her anything. Absolutely anything. I just can't forgive myself for it. I can't help but think that I am the one who got her killed. Me. It was all me." You say.

"Don't do that to yourself. You didn't know it would happen. It isn't your fault, it's HYDRA'S. But I can't just make you feel better. But I do think it wasn't your fault." Natasha taps your leg before leaving.

You hear Natasha tell Steve, "Just leave her alone. She doesn't want to talk."

You lay there for hours just crying. You finally get the nerve to go back out but when you do you don't see Steve or Natasha, just Bucky, and the man who hired Bucky to kill you. You blink a couple of times and the man disappears. 

"Y/n? You alright?" Bucky asks.

"Hm? Yeah! Yeah. I'm fine." You say, not believing what you just saw.

"You don't look fine."

"Well, I am so don't worry." You counter, "Do you know where Steve or Natasha is?"

"They said something about going downtown and how I wasn't supposed to tell you that." He says, "Shit."

"Chill, I'm not going to go downtown to find them, I was just curious."

"Promise?"

"Promise." You assure him.

Bucky shifts so he's facing you.

"So, uh, how long have you been in New York?" He asks.

"My entire life actually. You?"

"Same."

There's a bit of awkward silence before you hear commotion outside. You run to the window and see about forty-five HYDRA agents.

"Bucky, we need to go, like now." You run over and try to the cuffs off him but fail, "Shit. Um, give me a second."

You run to 'your' room and grab a lock pick out of your suit's utility belt. You run back out and hear someone banging on the door, then they start ramming the door. You fall at Bucky's side and start trying to pick the cuff lock. As you do the door keeps getting hit, and it slowly cracks. You finally successfully pick the lock as the door flies off the hinges. You stand up, grab Bucky's collar and jump out the window. Bucky pulls you in so you'll land on him. When you land Bucky picks you up and runs away from the building. He makes a hard turn left and you both make your way downtown. You realize you've been gripping on his collar for dear life. He turns into an alley and puts you down.

"You okay?" He asks.

"I'm fine, I should be asking the same."

"I'm okay, I just need to rest for a minute. . ." He says before he collapses onto the wall.

You grab his arm and say, "Bucky! Here." You help him onto the ground.

He grabs your wrist, "Leave me, don't let HYDRA get you. We don't need another Winter Soldier." He whispers.

"No, I'm not leaving you."

"Please. I know you'll find me." Bucky insists.

You're reluctant to leave. You slowly make your way to the exit of the alley and look back one more time before running away with tears in your eyes. You run around looking for Steve and Natasha. You grip your side, running had not helped your wounds. You pull your hand away from your side and it's covered in blood. One of the stitches must've come loose. You think. You continue running to find them but you collapse in the middle of the sidewalk. Two women who were walking together rush over to you and try to help you. Some other people run over too. All of which are crowding over you. You feel overwhelmed and your sight goes blurry. No, I need to find Steve and Nat. You think. You get up, grunting in pain, and run away from those people. A few of them run after you but shortly give up. You push past everyone and come across a grocery store, They might be here! You run in and look down every aisle, limping and trying to catch your breath. You get to the soup aisle before collapsing on the ground again, and finally passing out.

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You wake up in a hospital bed. You look around and see Natasha sitting right next to you.

"Y/n! You're awake!" She cheers.

"Yeah, what happened?"

"I was gonna ask you the same question. Where's Bucky?" 

It all comes flooding back, "Bucky, he told me to find you guys, and to leave him. He said that we didn't need another Winter Soldier."

"He was right, we don't."

"HYDRA most likely has him now." You exclaim.