Neighbor

4.

Houston, TX
Onika Maraj
|1 month later|

I bet your thinking that I'm gonna tell you I broke the news to Beyonce and we haven't spoken ever since, well if I told you that, I'd be fucking lying.

Ever since that dinner, I haven't been so... judgemental towards her. I'm actually not dreading having to see her when I wake up in the morning, and I actually TAKE her coffee, and drink it. It's really good by the way. And it definitely gives me the boost that I need in the morning.

Every weekend when she helps me with my garden, I go over there for dinner. I really and actually like talking to her because she listens, and doesn't lie to me like the so called friends I thought I had. She takes my feelings into consideration and doesn't make it seem like I'm crazy for wanting to do something almost impossible.

I've learned a few things about her, for one, she owns 6 cars and all of them are in her garage. I've never really paid to much attention to her house, but when she showed me around, it's a lot bigger on the inside then it looks on the outside.

All the way in the back of her house, there's a home theatre, a whole popcorn maker and a concession stand for some reason. She has a screened in patio in the back with a pool. I've never even paid these things attention. Partly because the patio isn't next to my backyard. Her backyard is huge. So huge in fact that she has this industrial trampoline and a hen house. No, not a whore house, but it actually had chickens in it.

There's so many things I can tell you, but I'd rather not, because I don't feel like explaining. I just can't believe I was so scared to get close to her this whole time because I thought what I saw was an immature fuck girl. Someone who didn't take life seriously and only was talking to me because she wanted to get in my pants.

Even though I know she likes me, she hasn't tried to make one move on me. She hasn't even tried to sneak a kiss, or anything. The only thing that she does is look at me. And it's not in the way that your thinking.

Sometimes when she doesn't think I'm paying attention, I can see that she stares at me like I'm the most important thing in the world, like she cherishes me, or she wants to say something, but doesn't.

After second guessing myself and fighting myself this whole time, I can't any more. I will not lie and say that I don't want her to make a move, because then I'd be lying. Would I be mad if she did? At this point, no I wouldn't. But I really see her differently now that I've been spending more time with her.

She is a gentle soul, a gentle soul that has a story. I can tell she's been through something by the look in her eyes, and the fact that she doesn't want to or like to talk about herself. She makes it mostly about me when were together. There's something she's hiding but like I said, I'm not good at reading people and I could be wrong, but I don't think I am.

Remember how I said that she was probably a drug dealer because how the hell could she afford all this stuff with no job? Well she works from home.

She has a very neat office towards the back of his house with all types of files and other things in it. She hasn't exactly told me what she does, but I don't really care. I'm just glad my first assumption was wrong.

She's also really good with her hands. 😉She does things around her house by herself. Doesn't call anyone to help her. Like if she wants to tear something down and rebuild it, she will. I don't know why but that's actually a really attractive thing about her to me. Then again, I haven't actually been with anyone since I was 19, so maybe I'm desperate.

.....bitch please. I'm fucking lying. I've NEVER been desperate. Beyonce just suddenly came in my life, and right now, I'm not really complaining.

But on a serious note, I wish she'd open up a little more, more than she already has you know. I mean she tells me things, but there's also things I know she's holding back. I've actually opened up a lot to her, me! And I hate talking to people. I'm a very close minded person, and I can admit that. I've always wanted to change it, but I couldn't do it by myself, because I always felt like everyone was out to get me. Especially Bey, the way she came off wasn't aggressive or anything, but...I wasn't in the mind state to even give her a chance at the time.