Lust love

Mistakes to regrets

Mistakes and regrets are what make life. Everyone has experienced the two . Including myself, but I've had it harder than I had planned.
I didn't wake up one morning and say " I'm going to make a big mistake ". Or " I'm going to regret this one thing ."
No one does, it just happens.
I made thousands of them both . Giving a boy my all was one . Ain't never ever gave like I did for him , it's so sad .
Flashback------
It's Saturday evening, I'm so bored its nothing to do . I text my bestfriend and she asked for me to come over . I asked my mom to see if it was okay and she said it was . As I made my way to my friends house all I thought was , is he there too. I never thought it all through . He will be there and he will want to be around you or he might not . I started stressing . I pulled in and I saw him , my heart dropped . Time flew , it got dark , and time to go to sleep. Well ,I asked my Bestfriend to show me the back house . She takes upon her self to tell him to take me back there. ( the back house is attached to the main house , but smaller.) we walked back there ,and closed the door. I really wanted to see how the back house looked but he had other plans . As soon as we step in he force his lips upon mine . I fall in and do the same . We end up on the chair , where my jeans find their way down . Where his fingers find their way in . I moan at the pressure , but sit back for the pleasure . We get up , so I guess I'm wet enough. He leads me to the bed room , I follow foolishly . I know what happens in the bed room and I went any way . He lays me down on my bad , kissing me on my body , turning me on .
He goes to my pants again and unbutton my fastened jeans . Pull down his shorts and it happend . He pushes his penis inside of me , I push him back from the pain . He continues . I call his name , embracing the pain . He bends me over and does the same . It hurts so badly , I move up every stroke . Feeling the poke in my stomach . He stops , only to nut on my butt. I moan , at a relief , clean my self up and go . Leaving with a kiss . When we got back to the house I was astounded at the fact it happened . I didn't think I was ready , I wasn't .
My friend asked me what happened , I was speechless.
I couldn't answer her , because ain't believe what just happened . I lost my veginty.
Was I dreaming , no I was awake. Later on that night I went to his room . We laid in bed for what seemed like hours. All I felt was love. We talked about us ,how we felt , and made love all night .
We did it over and over again , until his ma ma got home . I went into the other room , laid there , thinking of everything that night .
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Yall , that was the best night ever. I did something wrong but it was so right . That night he introduced me to sex . Since then I've gotten used to it . All the times just made it normal for me. I was now attracted to this , and always wanted to do it . To the girls out there. If your boy ask you to have sex , be careful . Know more about him . Will he tell his friends? Leave you after? Question yourself . Cause I regret ever time I laid down and had sex with " him "
Cause after he didn't know me , he told his friends, and now im used to all this . So used to it , I don't care , as long as I get the "d". I hated the person I had became .