My way of escaping.

Nudes

You know what I hate? The fact that I literally have to brace myself for someone to ask me sexual questions or for nudes when we start talking. It almost never fails. If they don't ask right away they build to it. They act all nice and funny and say "no I'm no like the others, I don't want them. To BAM " I was wondering if maybe we could have some fun". Those are worse than the ones that are like "send nudes bitch". Now I have no problem sending nudes. In fact I like it, it makes me feel things. But when I say no that's the end of the discussion. I've met one person that politely asked and then let it go once I said no I was tired. That makes me actually want to send nudes to that person because they deserve it. Now I have one person that I send nudes to and they are a TOTAL DICK but they're hot and I'm cool with it. I sound like a whore but I'm really not. I'm not in a relationship and my snap score is just now making it to 100,000. So take that what you will. I feel that I have to prove myself to them. That I have the perfect body, that I'm a freak in the sheets. I don't want them to leave so bad that I do whatever it takes to get their attention, to keep them in my life. I know that's sad. You don't have to tell me. But what am I supposed to do? The thought of losing them makes me ache and my breathing to stop. There is just something about being used for your body that is so intoxicating right?. God I sound stupid. Whatever. :)