My Abusive Life!

It's To Soon

(Ryder pov)

Sitting in the backseat of the car with Aria's head laying in my lap all I could do was hope that her and our little girl are going to be ok. I feel bad that all the medical training I have received and I still feel helpless in this situation because I don't know what to do. I was rubbing her arm trying to keep her calm and then suddenly she was screaming in pain and then just passed out. "Guys something is really wrong she shouldn't be in this much pain," I tell Zoe and Nate struggling to remain calm. "Everything is going to be ok," I hear Zoe say but I was just to scared to really listen.

We finally pulled into the ER and I got out picking Aria bridal style and carry her inside, "someone help my girlfriend is seven months pregnant, her water broke, and she is in so much pain she has went unconscious," I tell the nurses behind the counter. "Sir bring her in here," she says as she leads me to a room where I lay her on a bed. "I'm sorry sir but we need you to go wait in the waiting room while we examine her. "Yes mam," I say beings I'm a doctor I know how important it is to let them have the space they need. I walk into the waiting room to find Zoe and Nate silently waiting. I take a seat beside Zoe, place my head in my hands and just let the tear I had been holding back fall. "Its going to be alright," Zoe says rubbing my back trying to calm me down. "I'm just so scared what if one or both of them doesn't make it how will I move on," I honestly admit my fear. "Don't think like that everything is going to be fine," she tells me but I could tell she was scared also. "Ryder Thomson," I hear someone call me. I jump up out of my seat and walked over to the doctor, "thats me, is Aria and the baby alright?" I ask frantically. "Sir, Aria will be fine and the baby will be to but only if we get the baby out now because the imblical cord is wrapped around the babies neck and she is suffocating," she says to me. "So you mean you have to do a c-section?" I ask even though I already knew the answer. "Yes, but we need to do it immediately so if you could just sign these papers giving us permission then we can get started." She says as she hands me a clip board with a form on it. I don't say anything I just sign it then watch her turn and walk away. I walk over to Nate and Zoe and tell them whats going on then I start pacing the floor not being able to sit still. A few minutes later I feel a hand on me, "you really love her don't you," Nate asked me. "I do," was all I could manage to say. "Then I will back off and let you two be together, because I believe deep down you two where meant to be together," he says to me sincerely. "Thanks, that means alot, I say holding my hand out for him to shake. As he shakes my hand he says, "I hope we can all be friends?" I shake my head yes as I say,"of course we can."

Around ten minutes after the doctor came and talked to me a nurse came and told me they where taking her back to have the c-section now, and asked if I would like to be in there for the birth of the baby. I have put on all the protective clothing required to wear in the operating room, and I'm now following the nurse into the room. I walk up to the operating table where Aria is laying and see that she is awake and looking scared. "Aria its going to be ok, I'm here for you, and I will never go anywhere," I say to her as I give her a quick kiss on her forehead. A moment later Dr. Nelson says, "we will have your little one out in just a few minutes." "I can't believe you are about to make me a father on my birthday of all days," I tell Aria happily. "I know you probably would have rather been somewhere fun on your birthday instead of being in a hospital," she says to me apologetically. "Don't apologize, Ava Leigh is going to make this the best birthday ever. A moment later we could hear the cries of our beautiful little baby girl fill the room. "Would you like to come cut the imblical cord," Dr. Nelson asked me which I did without even having to think about it. After I cut the cord Dr. Nelson then took Ava, cleaned her off before laying her on Aria's chest and the look of love on her face just made me love them more.

I just stood there holding this tiny little baby in my arms and I couldn't imagine my life without her and Aria in it. I was watching her sleeping in my arms when suddenly she started making little gasping sounds. "Dr. Nelson there is something wrong with Ava she is having trouble breathing!" I yell out in fear. She ran over to me, took Ava out of my arms, and carried her out of the operating room and to the NICU. "Sir we need you to back out to the waiting room while we get Miss Grant ready to go to recovery," one of the nurse says to me. As I head back to the waiting room I couldn't help but let my mind race on all the things that could be wrong with her, because of her being born two months to early. "Well how are they doing?" Zoe ask as soon as I entered the room.

"Aria is fine, but Ava is having trouble breathing and she is so little," I say as I begin to break down from all the fear inside me. I could feel myself getting weak as I fall to my knees and let myself cry. "Shh its ok, everything is going to ok, Ava is in the best hands possible, and Dr. Nelson is one of the best pediatric doctors in this area," she tells me trying to calm me down and I can honestly say that it was working, because she is right Ava has the best doctor in the area to help make sure she is able to get stronger and healthier.

A hour after Aria had Ava I am finaly able to go see her, and we were both going to be able to find out exactly what is going on with Ava. I enter Aria's room to find her sitting up in bed eating. "Hey baby how are you feeling," I ask her the give her a quick kiss on the forehead. "I'm ok a little sore but they said thats to be expected, I just want to see my baby but they just keep telling me we will get to see her soon, and Ryder I'm scared," she admits honestly with a sadness in her voice. "I know you are but I was told on my way in here that the doctor would be in here to talk to us soon about Ava and her condition." I tell her calmly. She scooted over so I could climb in the bed with her, after I climbed in with her then wrapped my arms around her and let her have the cry I know she desperately needed.

(Aria Pov)
I don't know how long I layed wrapped up in his arms while he let me cry, but I know as long as we have each other for support we could make it through anything. I had just about fallen asleep when there was a knock on the door, "you can come in," I hear Ryder say as I sat up to see who it was. A moment later Dr. Nelson entered into the room, "I would like to talk to you both about little Ava," she says to us. "Yes, please do we both would like to know whats going on with our little girl." I tell her as I anxiously await for the diagnosis. "Honestly she is doing very well to have been born so early and I see no major medical set backs in her development." She explains to us which makes Ryder and I both let out a breath nether one of us knew we where holding in. "Thats great, but then why did she start having trouble breathing," Ryder as with confusion in his voice. "Well its all normal with babies born this early, her lungs are just not fully developed yet, and she only ways four pounds, so she needs to gain at least two more pounds and be breathing on her own before we can release her to go home," she tells us as she writes her direct line number so that we could call her if we have any questions. "Mam one more thing before you go can we go see our little girl," I ask hoping she would say yes. "Of course you may see her, and I will send someone to bring you a wheelchair, but you must know will not be able to hold her today we need to keep her in the incubator while she is on oxygen," she tells us as heads back out the room.

As Ryder wheels me into the NICU, I couldn't help but feel both excited and little scared to see Ava. We get to her incubator and I see my tinny beautiful little girl looking so sickly because she had so many different wires all over her. I couldn't help but begin to cry as Ryder and I both put hand through the sides and ran our fingers along her hair. "Mommy and Daddy love you Ava and we want you to get better so we can take you home," I tell her and a small smile forms on her face almost like she was telling me she understood what I was saying. We just sat here staring for what seemed like forever, but I just didn't want to leave her side, I wanted to spend every waking moment with her even though I new I couldn't right now. "Mam I sorry but I'm going to have to ask you both to leave visiting hour are ending now," a nurse says kindly as she goes to finish checking on the other babies. Ryder and I say our goodbyes and then he wheels me back to my room and helps me climb back in bed. "Aria I have to go out for awhile and take care of some things but I promise I will be back as soon as I can, but until then Zoe and your grandparents are going to come in here and visit they have all been waiting to see you since we got here, but they wanted to give us some time alone. "That sounds amazing, I would love to see them, but can you tell them to wait and come in about an hour, I really need to get some rest, I am exhausted," I ask him sweetly as I feel myself start to fall asleep. "Sure, anything for you," he says as he kisses me quickly on the lips and then leaves me to sleep in peace.

Author's note:
Sorry I haven't posted in awhile, I have had a very busy weekend.
I will try to post again in the next day or so.
Newborn pick of Ava Leigh on this chapter.