My Abusive Life!

Admitting Feelings

(Aria pov)
   I have been at Zoe's house for a couple days now and I haven't seen much of Ryder, because he has been working nights and the sleeps all day. Part of me is glad that I haven't seen him because I'm not ready for him to know about the beatings, and I hate lying to him, but the other part really misses him and wants to see him. Not being able to take not seeing him anymore I get up out of bed and head to Ryder. As I get to his room I slowly open his door and see him sleeping with his back to me, I tiptoe to the other side of his bed carefully so as not to wake him. I don't really know how long I had been standing there, but he start to stir so I turned to run not wanting to get caught, but before I could even get away from the bed good my foot got caught on the lamp cord causing me to trip and fall on Ryder and the lamp to go crashing loudly to the floor.

  "What the heck," Ryder says as he sits up a little to quickly causing us to bump heads. "OUCH,"I scream, "you have a hard head." Laughing he ask "are you ok, and what are you doing in here anyway? Where you watching me sleep," he says wiggling his eyes. "Pssh no, I mean yes!" I say feeling my cheeks heating up. "You are so beautiful when you blush," he says as he runs his finger across my cheek. "I'm sorry I woke you, I just wanted to see you and also make sure your not mad at me," I say sadly. "Aria I'm not mad at you, I just wish you would talk to me and tell me whats going on I really want to help you, he says with concern in his voice. "I just can't Ryder I'm just not ready to tell you, I like you but if you can't accept that I'm not ready to talk then I guess we can't be together," I say as I get up and walk back to mine and Zoe's room.

(Ryder pov)
     Taking a minute to take in what all she just said, I hadn't even realized that she had left my room. I can't let her just walk out of my life, I really do want her to talk to me but if she is not ready to then I guess I will just have to accept that, because I know for sure I don't want to lose her. I get out of bed, pick out some clothes, and then head to get a shower as I think to myself I'm going to make sure I show her I want her in my life no matter what, so I'm going to plan a date for tonight.

    After I finshed getting dressed I made several phone calls and had planned out the perfect date for tonight, now I just have one last thing to do which is to go ask Aria if she will go out with me. I go downstairs to find Aria eating breakfast with my family, "Aria can I talk to you for a minute?" Turning to look at me she says, "sure, what you want?" "I was wondering if you would go on a date with me tonight," I ask trying not to sound nervous. "I don't know Ryder, I don't think it's I good idea," she says then gets up and heads outside towards the pool. Without even thinking I follow after her, "Aria I swear I will not ask any questions and I will do whatever you ask, just please go out with me I really like you and I know you like me to you admitted it this morning." Finally catching up to her I turn her to look at me and I could see tears in her eyes, "Aria, did I say something to hurt you feelings, I'm sorry," I say sadly.  Promise me you won't hurt me, or leave me, and whats to say you won't decide you don't want me anymore and just throw me away like I'm just a piece of trash, she answers as she cries. "Aria I would never hurt you and your are not trash, I will always want you, you are an amazing person I say trying to comfort her and insure her I wasn't going anywhere. "Thats not what my dad said, he doesn't want me heck he sent me to live with Jackson who was almost a complete stranger to me and heck he hates me, I'm just a worthless nobody." She says quietly and then looks shock like she didn't mean for that to come out. Trying to pull her hand that I was holding away she says, "I should have said that just forget it and forget me to since now you know I'm worthless." Without a word I pull he closer to me and place my lips on her kissing her softly and lovingly,  I wanted to put all my feelings for her into the kiss, I want her to feel the love I have for her and also make her fell safe and wanted.

(Aria pov)
   When he was kissing me I could feel all my worries disappearing, I just felt so safe with him and I knew at this moment I was falling in love with him. I wasn't meaning to tell him all that I did about my life but I was kind of glad that I did let it slip, because the way he reacted to what I said just showed me he was nothing like the other men in my life. After he kissed me I did finally tell him I would go out with him.

   After Ryder left I went and told Zoe about our date which led to her demanding she was going to be the one that got me ready for the date. So here it is two hours till my date with Ryder and she is treating my like her own personal life size barbie. "Aria you have to be still so that I can do your hair," Zoe says pulling on my hair. "Zoe you do know I'm capable of doing my own hair and make up," I say getting annoyed with her, I hate when she tries to make me over. "I don't care your my friend and he is my cousin and I want you to look gorgeous for him tonight," she says happily. "Fine, have it your way" I say feeling defeated. 

  Finally, after an hour and a half of having Zoe do my hair and make-up she was done. She straightened my hair and done my make-up natural except for giving me bright red lips. She went to her closet and pulled our a black dress that was simple yet elegant. She handed me the dress and when I put it on it showed all my curves and hit just above my knees. Looking in the mirror I could hardly belive it was me I was seeing. "Zoe, I look amazing!" I say excitedly. "I know and Ryder isn't going to be able to take his eyes off of you," she says laughing as she gives me a hug and then leaves me to have a moment to myself before I have to go downstairs to meet Ryder

   Picture of Aria dress on this chapter.