a little bit more | h.s

6. "i don't feel the same way"

Emilys POV

I walk into school with my head low, i would normally walk with Harry but i don't exactly want to speak to him right now.

It's Friday today and i'm glad, i just want to go home, sleep and be alone. Last night I stayed up watching the video of me and Harry over and over again and then scrolling through the comments that were written. Most of them were negative and aimed at me, saying I wasnt good enough for harry and that i was ugly which hurt me more than they should have because i don't even know them? I shouldn't be bothered by what they say.

"Emily!-Emily wait up!" I hear Nialls strong accent from the end of the hallway, I stop in my tracks and turn around forcing my best smile.

"Hi Niall" i say as he begins to walk towards me, sounding out of breath.

"you alright?" Niall asks as we begin to walk again.

"Yeah" I say, I hear Niall sigh before he steps in front of me stopping me from walking.

"Look, i know somethings up" He says softly, i sigh and think whether or not i should tell Niall.

"Niall please just-im fine okay, look" i force the biggest smile i can which makes Niall raise his eyebrows at me and roll his eyes.

"Im not stupid" Niall huffs, I really just want Niall to leave me alone. He's always the one to ask millions of questions and he wont stop until you give me a valid answer.

My eyes then fall on a tall figure walking down the hallway, it's Harry. He has some sort of bandana in his hair, holding back the curls at the front. But he looked extremely good.

"Emily?" I hear Nialls voice say as he waves his hand in front of my face before looking at where i was.

"wait-Harry?" niall says shaking his head in shock.

"Don't tell me you have a crush on him" he says laughing slightly, i turn to face him and laugh.

"What? No? Why would I like Harry?" I lie, why wouldnt i like harry.

I watch Harry as he shoves stuff into his locker and closes it, his eyes locking with mine afterwards. He doesn't say anything except tear his eyes away quickly after and rush out into the schools garden, the door slamming behind him.

Niall looks at his watch before saying "Look, i have to go but next time we talk please tell me what's wrong okay?" He gives me a small hug before walking towards the art department of the school.

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"You will have a test on this on Monday so make sure you revise over the weekend!" Miss potters voice says as everyone floods out of the classroom door.

Today was finally over and i couldn't be more happier. I hadn't seen Harry much today, except from at Lunch where he sat with his friends but he had left shortly after.

"Em!"

"Emily! Stop, Just listen okay!"

"Emily stop walking fast!"

"Fuck sake slow down!"

I angrily turn around and see Harry jogging towards me. I breathe in and out and try to calm myself down, i really didn't want to talk to him.

"Just listen before you run off" Harry says as he catches his breath, i roll my eyes and nod.

"Im sorry for what did the other day. I was stupid okay. Wait, the kiss wasn't stupid i meant like i was stupid for telling you to leave. Is this making sense? Shit, I'm sorry okay?" Harry says his eyes flashing with guilt.

"I know you probably hate me and i would too so it's okay to be upset but please don't ignore me" Harry says grabbing my hand, i slowly pull it away and step back slightly.

"I'm so confused" i say shaking my head. I don't even know if Harry likes me or not, he said that the kiss wasn't stupid? What is that suppose to mean?

"So you're saying you were meant to kiss me or?" I say watching harry as he plays with his lip.

"..Yes" he says quietly.

I feel my body slowly heat up and the pace of my heartbeat speed up. Did he actually just say that?

"But why did you tell me to leave then" I say quietly, Harry just sighs and grabs my hand and pulls me to an area away from the pavement where everyone was walking on.

"I was thinking about this last night" Harry says as he looks at the ground before running his fingers through his hair.

"What was you thinking about?" I ask.

"Us"

"Us?"

"Yeah" he sighs. I swallow hard and nod my head, what does he mean by 'us' ?

"And i think it's better if we just stay friends because i know you like me Emily and I'm sorry that i don't feel the same way.." There they were those 6 words i hoped i would never hear come out of Harrys mouth 'i don't feel the same way'. I've had a crush on Harry for ages and those words i had dreaded ever since.

"o-okay" i manage to say, harry looks at me worriedly and sighs.

"i'm sorry" he says before hugging me.

i push him softly away and try to hide the tears that are forming in my eyes.

"i need to go home" i whisper, harry just stares at me before slowly nodding.

"see you on Monday" i speak before walking away, finally letting the tears roll down my cheeks.

'i don't feel the same way'

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hey so i really hate this fanfiction like its so bad and i really want to just start again or just edit the fuck out of it because the chapters are so bad!!

but i updated because i felt like i needed too so

bye

btw that frog is how im feeling rn

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