𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓮𝔂𝓮𝓼 𝓪𝓻𝓮 𝓶𝓮𝓮𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓮𝓪𝓬𝓱 𝓸𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻𝔂𝓭𝓪𝔂

part20

you looked deeply into his eyes and said

'the moon is beautiful, isn't it?'

xxx

miya: it really is

his beautiful green eyes were sparkling. you loved this view.

he pulled you closer and snuggled to your neck and you were just enjoying the moment and was happy you were still in this world.

xxx

*flashback* (tw!)

nothing

this is how your days were. feeling nothing for months, not even anger or sadness. you could't even remember when was the last time you felt happy.

you hated the reality. you were asking yourself everyday if all of this is real. the reality was empty. nothing mattered to you.

'we're all gonna die someday so why is everyone trying so much to do all these things they'll forget in a couple years?'

every day was grey. nothing waited for you in this world. it was horrible.

it was that bad with you that your mom ordered you to psychologist.

you felt like nothing is better. just grey everywhere.

deppression. that's what the doctor said to you and your mom.

everything started to make sense to you.

all the empty months.

not eating for days.

stomach aches.

all of it.

suddenly, when you thought it's never gonna get better, random catboy came to your life and brighten it up.

of course your deppression wasn't cured, actually it's still inside you to this moment, but miya made you wanting to stay in this world.

you decided to never tell him about it.

all you ever gonna tell him is your anxiety and fear of loud noises.

thats all.

xxxxx

you were in front of your house saying goodbye to miya.

you kissed him goodbye and hugged him not wanting to let him go.

miya: come on y/n. we'll see eachother tomorrow. we can facetime if you want?

you stopped hugging him snd stepped back.

y/n: it's okay. im gonna go to sleep. im very tired

miya: okay. i wanted to ask you if youre okay, you seemed weird today.

y/n: no, im fine. im just really tired.

miya: um, okay. you know you can tell me anything, right?

y/n: i know. bye miya

miya: bye y/n. i love you

y/n: i love you too

the second you closed the door you felt empty again.

you went to your room quietly and put headphones on your ears.

you played your favourite songs and fall asleep fast with your cat and plushie form miya in your arms.

xxx

you woke up tired like every single morning.

you took your phone seeing its on 4%.