The one dm (Juicy fruit snacks x reader)

All black

Writers note!!!! At the very end of each chapter I all-ways put a teaser so if you are curious what will happen next chapter look there. Enjoy reading 🙃.

I get into my car. Mark and Angel wanted me to take them. But I just told them to stay. I need...no i have to go by myself. I haven't seen him in years. I haven't been there since the accident.

Today is the day 6 years ago I almost died and my first love saved me. But he gave his life for me. I will alway love him. I know he would have wanted me to move on but yet years later i am drawn to him again.

I park my car a few feet away from the spot. I get out and take out my red roses in a green vase. I walked to the very spot where my life almost vanished. I didn't know it but I was crying. I wiped my tears. I placed the vase in the very spot the car went over the bridge. I get on my knees and sit on the floor. I feel the eyes on me as the car pass by. Its busy at this time but i don't care who sees me. I am here for gavin.

I close my eyes and remember the car accident. It was right after we left the party at mikes.

We were driving to our spot. It was in the outskirts of Boston, in some small town. They had a woods that Gavin and I would goto if we wanted to be alone. We usually talked or walked around.

But this time Gavin wanted to talk to me for some reason I will never know. He was so happy and very nervous for some odd reason. But we drove to the spot. It looked over Boston and the view was wonderful. I could see all the lights that made up boston. I could see all the buildings and even the shore. I could see the boats docking or going away for an adventure.

But instead it was cut short when that man hit us. I wipe my tears. I have been crying uncontrollable since sitting down.

"I miss you gavin." I sob out loud. "You doofus. You really had to let me live, huh? But I would have done the same thing because i loved you and you loved me." I look at his picture that is displayed on the fence.

He saved me and I will never get to tell him thank you. He will never know what I really thought of him. Why did I have to hide my feelings? Why did I shut him out sometimes when all he wanted was to know what I was truly feeling. Why was I so cold when all he wanted was for me to let him in.

I feel hands pressed on my shoulders. I look up and for a split moment I can see Gavin he is smiling and whispers something but then the lights blinds me. I open my eyes again and no one is there. I get up and smile. That's all I needed. I walk away. I get to my car and look back. I finally feel relieved. I know what i need to do. I can't hold on my past but learn from it. "Thank you gavin" I turned away and turn on my car and drive to the graveyard where i was meant to meet Mike.

-later-

"Thanks for meeting me Honey." Mike tears a little bit while hugging me.

"Thank you MIke." I smile hugging him back.

"Take care and when you come back let's go somewhere nice." he smiles wide. Walking away from me.

"Okay I will." I smile and walk to my car. I know now what i must do. Thanks to Gavin I need to move on.

I know I need to talk to Gaege. I need to know what really happened. I drive back to the apartment. I park my car and go to the apartment.

I walk into the place I will be living in for a while until I figure things out. I take out the keys and unlock the door. I open the door and see Mark pacing back and forth. He looked angry with a mixture of annoyance and worry. His eyes meet mine and I know it's about me. All the peace I once felt before entering has disappeared. Gone in a blink of an eye.