The one dm (Juicy fruit snacks x reader)

friends?

I wake up to see Sammy and Gabby by my side. I sit up and rub my eyes. "Hi," I say to them.

They look over and say hi in unisom. It was weird and we all laugh about it.

"So luna gurl. How are you feeling." gabby says.

"Been better." I say I'm feeling a massive headache coming on. We talked till the doctor came in. They ran some tests on me to see if anything else is causing my stress but nothing came up. Everything feels like it's falling back into place. I only need to talk to Mark and everyone one I fucked or almost fucked. I need to make things clear to them. But the day is spent running tests.

But one thing I hated was the blood drawn from me. Angel had to hold my hand while the nurse put the needle in me. I screamed and cried. I don't get scared in movies but needles are scary. Funny how I have tattoos but scared of needles. One thing I can never wrap my head around.

The day ends and everyone has to go. And it's another night of endless thoughts running all over my head. Until my eyes shut for the night.

The next couple of days are like this until I'm let out. I am finally let out. I feel the sun on my skin. Something I never knew I would ever miss.

The doctor said I can't do anything that will get me mad, scared or out of breath. Nothing that will put my heart rate up. So I really can't do anything fun for the next 2 weeks. Which is dumb. And they also put a heart monitor on me. So I will have something circular and over my heart for the next couple of months to make sure i dont get close calls. The heart monitor will notify Me, 2 other people and my doctor but I don't know who should have it. Of course Mark or angel will have it but who else? Should I let Gaege have the monitor too or someone else just in case something like his ex happens again.

I know I can trust him but in the back of my head I doubt. It tells me he will leave and find someone better. Or he will go to his ex. He will find someone better and our love wasn't real.

"Hey Luna, what are you doing? It's time to go." Ethan pulls my arm leading me to my van. I hope we are alone so i can talk to him about us only being friends. I hope he doesn't get mad.

When I get in no one is in my car. Thank god. We can talk in peace for the next hour driving back home.

"No one else will be joining us," Ethan said, a little annoyed. He must have noticed me looking around. But why does he sound annoyed?

"Cool." is the only word that comes out, softly. Fuck why am i acting like this.

"There is a lot of traffic. So u can lay down in the back while we go home." he says putting my bags on the bed and walking to the drivers seat.

"Ethan, can we talk?" I say walking slowly to the passenger seat.

"Sure about what?" he asked, taking a turn onto the highway.

"we need to talk about...." What do I say about our friendship, relationship?They both sound so wrong to say.

"Our social status with each other." he says filling the words i was trying to fill.

"Yea that." I sat down next to him.

"So what are we?" he asked, taking a stop at a traffic light.

"I honestly don't know. I really do like you. But-"

"Then there's Gaege, your ex." he says with a sigh.

"I'm sorry. I wish I could explain to you. But-"

"You want to see if him and you work out." he say looking over at me. I can see a hit of anger and pain in his eyes.

"Yes," I lower my head. What should I say to him? I like you but I love my ex boyfriend?

Nothing makes sense. I wish everything would just make sense.

"It's fine. I will wait. Cuz I know he will hurt you." Ethan says after a while of silence.

"What do you mean by that?" I said angrily.

"He hurt you and you're going back to him? And you ran from him. You will run again. Luna." he says taking a turn into some walmart parking lot.

"Why are we here?" I asked.

"Because I want to talk to you and I can't if I am driving." he moves to the farthest parking spot away from any car or person.

"Talk about what? I said everything I needed to say." I look away from him crossing my arms.

"Luna, why are you going back to him?" he asked, turning to me.

"because...I-I love him." i say looking fiercely at Ethan.

"So you didnt feel anything when we kissed?" he asked.

"What was I supposed to feel? You helped me when I was hurting but we can only stay friends." I said to him.

"Why cant u understand that luna i really care for you. I want us to be more than friends. We can't just be friends." he grabs my arms pulling me to him. I push away.

"Look Ethan i'm sorry i led you on but there can't be an us." I say looking at him. I see the pain and anger in his eyes.

"Why do you let him step all over you?" he asked. Moving back to the driver's seat.

"I don't let him. I made a mistake. I jumped to conclusions. I had some faults." i said angrily.

"Why do you defend him all the time? He literally put you in the hospital and here you are going back to him." i see him clenching his fist.

"Look nothing can happen between us. If you don't want to-to'' I'm getting lightheaded. And it's getting hard to breathe. I feel my body leaning to one side. I feel someone's hand on me. What was i doing right now? I can't remember? I look around and I see that I'm being put into my bed in the van. What's happening?

"Well will talk when you are better. You cant be getting mad like that." he walks away and starts the car.

I feel my eyes getting heavy. And I drift off to sleep. What was I getting mad about?

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Its been a couple of hours since im back at the apartment. I'm feeling alot better and I finally remembered what me and Ethan were talking about. I know that we have to stay friends or nothing at all. I just hope he understands that. 

writers note: heyyyy guys sorry i havent posted a chapter in months. im in my home country for the summer and i have been doing alot of stuff so i havent been on wattpad of a long time. sorry this chapter was short and there will be no next chapter here i still dont know what i should do here. but i hope yall have a good day :D