Rant On

It's Not

Everyone: Suicide is selfish. It's the easy way out, you don't consider the pain your family and friends will go through. If you commit suicide you are weak.

Me: The easy way out?! There is nothing remotely easy about suicide. Do you think it's easy fighting every natural instinct in your body telling you to survive? Do you think it's easy to come to the decision that ultimately, it would be better if you were dead? Better for you, for your friends, for your family. Because when you're suicidal, you consider everything. You consider what would bring your loved ones pain. That's why you hold off for as long as you can. But sometimes you can't do it. Suicide doesn't happen because you were feeling a little sad one day or because your boyfriend dumped you. It's because everything is overwhelming. You can't see any light in your life and your vision is shrouded with darkness. You can't envision a future without pain; hell, you can't envision a future at all. You don't have any hope for anything. You have been too strong for far too long. So you do it. You take the plunge. You jump off the building. You walk in front of the train. You do whatever it takes to stop the voices. If you think that going through all of this is weak then you're delusional.