What Are We

Part 4

Both Jin and RM decided to visit suga's studio to know the exact thing because, he was the only one who knew the entire truth. But suga wasn't there, they knocked up on his room door too but no one answered.
Joon called yoongi but he wasn't picking up his phone either.

This made them both panicked, they decided to first look in the dorm, when they still couldn't find him, they asked members whether they knew where suga was, still not revealing the "crush" incident.

They didn't wanted to tell members about yoongi's potential crush on hobi not before confirming it.

But when the members questioned why they were so concerned about not seeing suga, a grown man, for less than an hour. As he is very much capable of being by himself and he would return soon. And just shrugged it off, Jin revealed, to get their attention, that suga has crush on someone but he thinks that he isn't worthy enough for them. So he is worried that suga might be going through a tough time alone.

Hearing this got all of them concerned.

But it broke jimin's heart, not just because suga has crush on someone, which according to jimin definitely isn't he himself (Jimin). But mainly because, his lovely hyung, whom he adored so much, thinks that he isn't worthy for someone.

Ohh, how he wished to shower yoongi with kisses and tell him how perfect he is, and that he was worthy of everything.
That person is lucky that someone like yoongi has a crush on them.

He was jealous of yoongi's crush, how he wished he was that person,

𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐡𝐞 𝐤𝐧𝐞𝐰 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦. 𝐊𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐢 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐞𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐨𝐧 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐡𝐢𝐦 𝐭𝐨 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦.

He just wanted to erase all the pain from yoongi's life and give him all the happiness, because happiness is what he deserves.

Even if it meant breaking his own heart, he wanted yoongi to be loved by the one he(yoongi) loved.

/Maybe that's what love is, caring for their happiness more than yours/

While the members were busy searching for their hyung, they knew yoongi wouldn't take any wrong step, but they wanted to walk with him in this hard time of self doubt.

Yoongi on the other hand, was wandering in the city, questioning and reevaluating everything.

He needed this moment, this alone time to understand his feelings better.

Understanding his emotions have always been hard for him but this time it was harder than ever.

He was feeling disappointed and confused.

He was confused, as he thought he loved jimin, then why did he said hoseok's name instead?
He considers hoseok his brother right?

Whom does he truly loves? It was confusing, it was a mess, 𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘮𝘦𝘴𝘴.

Though him and jimin were never in relationship to begin with, for some reason it felt like cheating. It felt like he had betrayed jimin, that he had cheated on 𝘩𝘪𝘴 chim, by saying hoseok's name. And he was really ashamed and disappointed in himself for this.

Thinking about it for a good while, yoongi concluded that he isn't ready for relationship, not yet.
He felt that jimin deserves someone better, someone who would proudly say that he/she is whipped for Jimin and not chicken out like yoongi did.

Maybe the reason why he chickened out was how perfect jimin is in his eyes.

He never seemed to know how to react when jimin is around him, a part of him is afraid that jimin would think of him as brother and nothing more, as instead of being sweet and soft, like other lovey dovey couples,

All he does is bicker with Jimin.

Maybe It's his love language, but what if jimin doesn't see it as a love language.

Honestly, it's not actually his love language, he just get anxious around jimin and to be cool and calm he bickers.

So the conclusion that he came to was simple, that is, he isn't ready for relationship yet, but what If 𝗯𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝗵𝗲 𝗶𝘀 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝘆 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝘁𝗼𝗼 𝗹𝗮𝘁𝗲.

If he told jimin that he loves him but isn't ready yet, you can bet, jimin would wait his whole life for yoongi, but yoongi did NOT knew that, he didn't knew jimin liked him back and even if he did, he wouldn't hold jimin back like this. He would let jimin move on, because he believed jimin deserved someone better.

/But there was no one better for jimin than him./

He walked back home, but he was met with an empty dorm as all the other members were out searching for him.
After some time they entered the dorm, sad and gloomy but as soon as they saw yoongi's shoes outside, suggesting yoongi was back, their faces lit up, they all ran towards yoongi's studio, though they didn't have to go there as yoongi was seated in the living room, as soon as they saw him they all jumped on him for a group hug.

It might not seem serious to others but it was about their hyung doubting his self worth, which was very serious to those boys.

And one can bet, yoongi was in treat for the Scoldings from his 6 brother.

/How dare he underestimate their lovely yoongi hyung?/