That should be me...

hidding

Jasmines pov

We went through the zoo having a great time. i was happy but couldnt get what i said to brent out of my head, i just told my best friend that i hate him. 

Josh finally dropped me off at home and i felt like i was out of the car and running for the door before he even could stop the car. I went straight to my room and flopped on my bed with my face in the pillow wanting to cry.

After about 5 minutes i finally decided to get up and at least find some food. standing up i slipped on something and fell right on my floor. looking around for what i slipped on was a small box with a bow and letter on bright blue paper.

i opened the letter and set the box on my lap, i looked for name or something and couldnt find one so i decided to read the letter.

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Jasmine,

hey im sure youre really confused about that box you always get mad when you cant figure stuff out on your own. anyway i dont believe you meant what you said today about hating me i know you wouldnt hate your best friend for looking out for you... 

Brent. how could he have gotten into my room? what was this about?

And btw your window was open thats how i got in here. i wanted you to know that josh just took your best friend away from you and youre okay with it...you dont deserve someone that's going to push you around like that. i could treat you so much better and i intend to. now to that box, i want you to open it and take out whats inside..im going to explain it as soon as you do.

carefully i opened the box and took out what was inside. i just looked at it. what was it? there were just colored ribbons, i dont even know what i would do with colored ribbons. i set the box and ribbons on the floor and continued to read the letter.

i doubt you remember these. you gave me a different colored ribbon every year on our friendaversary. and now im giving them to you. take the blue one, it was from year one and put it on your door handle. the orange one put on the left bed post and the green one on the right. take the rest and put them anywhere you want. our freindaversary is on thursday and theres a pink one left, if you want to stay friends either but hidding around or standing up to Josh wear it in your hair to school. i also want to say i wont give up on us. i want to be with you and someday i will be. i love you jas and i will until i die. 

love forever,

Brent...

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i set the letter down and hung the ribbons around my room placing them were i would always be able to see them. we were coming up on 13 years of being friends, since kindergarten til now. i thought about what i was going to do. do i lie to josh or stand up to him?

i dont want josh to beat up brent and i dont want to hide and him not trust me. i just wanted my best friend and my boyfriend. 

at that moment when i placed the blue ribbon on the door i realized i told josh that i love him..i dont know why i did it. i know that it takes a long time to truly love someone. but i dont love him...i love brent...

i couldnt just leave josh because he made me happy and i think i could grow to love him and he would definitely come after brent and i would hate that.

its decided i cant lose my boyfriend and he would beat up brent if i stood up to him and i love brent i dont want him getting hurt.

i picked up my phone as i thought about this and sent a text to brent.

me- hey meet me at our playground in 15, were hidding.