Memories ||A BFB/II Crossover AU||

Chapter Four - "Him or Her?"

Trigger Warning - Subtle Mention of Sui*ci*e, Strong language  

All Four could feel was regret. It had plagued him ever since Leafy had gone missing 3 days ago, Pin had set out to find her, but hadn't returned. His fur was unclean and unkempt, and his eyes were tired. He was also sickeningly thin, having been too worried about all the events to eat. He hadn't eaten since the day 3 weeks ago he had ended the show, and he didn't plan to. X sat by his side, his usually bright yellow fur was now duller, and his usually happy bright green eyes were now dull, and betrayed no emotion. Around X's neck was a collection of fur that made it look like he had a mane, and his fur was very fluffy, but even that, which was usually all clean and magnificent, had turned dull and dirty. 

"I miss her." Four croaked, his voice hoarse. X didn't reply, just stared at his paws. Four felt worried because X almost never acted like this. X would always try to cheer everyone up, but now he seemed as if he was too tired to do even that. Four felt another wave of regret crash over him, he shouldn't have ended the show. If he hadn't, no one would have been hurt. 

"X, Are you okay?" Four asked, his gaze locking onto the smaller numeral. 

"No. The truth is I'm not. We've both gone through so much, and now this?! I'm about done. I'm so close to breaking. So fucking close." X burst out, his voice anger, but laced with an aching sadness. Four was surprised, because X never really had outbursts like that, and always avoided cursing. And X wasn't done either. 

"When will this all end...? I just want to go home, or maybe, maybe I don't want to continue on." X said, his voice now heavy. Four stiffened at the words he had just said. 

"No! X! We have to, for the kids!" Four insisted. 

"I don't give a shit. I'm fucking done with this hell hole of a life. I just want it to be over already." X shot back, before getting up and walking off. The words stung. Four's mind raced, and he felt as if he was about to cry. Wave after wave of regret, sadness, and anger swept over him, and he felt as if he were in an ocean, struggling to swim as violent waves tossed him about. He snapped out of this as Donut walked over. This particular contestant had been watchful over Four, trying to get him to eat, to do something other than sulk. 

"Four?" Donut said, his voice shaking. 

"Yes, Donut?" Four asked. 

"Please. Eat." Donut said, and Four noticed he had brought food. 

"I'm not hungry." Four said, and he wasn't lying, he felt no desire to eat. Donut's pale-ish-colored fur bushed up, and sudden anger flashed in his eyes. 

"You have to eat! Think of everyone else around you, don't continue sulking, and do something!" He spat, before seeing the look of hurt on Four's face. Four sighed and walked over to grab the food. He stared at it, before picking it up and walking into his tent, leaving Donut behind. He stared at the food again, the thought of eating it made him sick. He choked it down, feeling as if each bite would be too much. He finished the food, and threw the trash to the side, before looking at his paws. He finally realized how dirty his blue fur was, and his fur, although short, was very matted. He thought back to Donut's words, and sighed. Then he felt tiredness wash over him, he hadn't slept for 3 days. He let out a small sigh, but then the loud sound of furious screeching split the air, dragging him back to being on full alert. He burst from his tent, and saw Five, Pin, and Leafy. Pin was in a tussle with Five, and Leafy was watching, terrified, on the side. Four started to rush over, but then stopped as he saw someone step in front of him, two numerals and a variable, actually. The first one had fur like Four's, but a bit darker, and his eyes were amber. The second one was lime green, and significantly smaller than the others, but still looked, threatening, to say the least, and their eyes were a dark green. The last one had light red fur and was the biggest. They also had brown eyes, but one was seemingly clawed over. "Four. Nice seeing you." The first one hissed. "Move out of the way! All three of you!" Four yelled. "Aw, not pleased to see us, Four? It's just your old pals! One, Y, and Three!" The first one, One, hissed. "Get out of my fucking way!" Four hissed, shoving past them. What he saw filled him with horror. Blood stained the grass around where the fight had been happening, and Pin was pinned under Five, looking worn out. Four looked at Five, who was ready to kill Pin. Then a voice split the tense silence that had settled over the clearing.

"No!" It was Leafy, and Four watched as she ran across the distance between her and the two fighting cats. Her fur rippled from green to gray to red in what seemed like seconds as the distance between her and Five seemingly disappeared. Leafy slammed into Five's side, sending him flying. Leafy fell to the ground, panting, then looked towards Pin, who was bleeding and hardly breathing. Four watched all of this unfold, frozen. Once again a tense silence settled on the clearing as Leafy approached Pin. Five was trying to get up, but a few of the other kids had forced him back to the ground in a group effort. Leafy nudged Pin slightly, but Pin didn't stir, her eyes were dull, and she seemed weak as could be.

"Pin?" The name seemed to hang in the air as Leafy crouched near Pin, tears streaming down her face.

"Leafy..." Pin replied quietly, her paw raising slowly. She put her paw on Leafy's face and smiled weakly before slowly going limp. Four merely stared. 

"PIN!" Leafy's wail of despair filled the air. Four shut his eyes, and tried to recover Pin, but he couldn't. She couldn't be dead then. When he reopened his eyes, he saw Leafy desperately shaking Pin.

"Please, Wake up!" Leafy's pleads seemed to echo off invisible walls, and it broke Four's heart at the amount of sadness and desperation that filled Leafy's voice. He slowly walked over, and froze when he saw something.

Pin wasn't breathing.

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A/N - Death? Maybe, Maybe not. Look out for chapter Five! Maybe we'll get a history on Five and Four's friendship? Hehehehe.