Cyber Love ~Johnny Silverhand X Reader~

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I woke up the next morning with a killer headache, 'ugh...I wanna fucking die' I groaned as someone chuckled, I looked over and saw Johnny sitting on the couch with his feet on my coffee table. "Rough night?" he asked as I groaned, "my head hurts" I mumbled as I sat up and rubbed my eyes, "what are you doing here?" I asked stretching, "came by last night to check up on you, the door was locked...like it always was, so I hacked your lock, came in, and saw you were drunk. You yelled at me about some shit, stumbled towards me, I caught you from falling, then took you to the shower. I gave you shower and then put your ass in bed for the night." he spoke as he got up and walked over to me. I looked away from him, "what was I mad about?" I asked as he sat down on the bed next to me, "you were mad about that fact that I constantly flirt with you but never act on it..." he spoke as I blushed, "Y/n...I would love nothing more than to be your boyfriend because believe me when I say I do love you...I'm just...worried" he spoke as I looked at him, "worried that I'm gonna end up fucking it up like I always did in the past. I fucked it up with Rouge, fucked it up with Alt, I almost fucked up V and Panam's relationship...I fuck up everything" he spoke as I stared at him, "and I don't want to fuck anything up with you. That's why I've not acted on my flirting, I love you too much that I'm scared of losing you. Which is both a good thing and a bad thing...it's a good thing because I'd try my damnest to not lose you, and it's a bad thing because of how hard I'll try" he told me as I stared at him.

"Johnny..." I started as he looked at me, "I honestly think it would be better if we just remained friends, that way I don't end up breaking your heart..." he spoke as I stared at him, 'too late, you just did' I mentally spoke as I gave him a fake smile. "If that's what you want" I spoke, "it's not...but it'll be safer for you," he said looking away.

~A month later~

I was sitting on my couch listening to music, old music from the twenties, and sketching on my sketchpad. I got a call from V, "hello?" I answered, "you coming out to the party tonight?" he asked as I arched an eyebrow, "where?", "Kerry is throwing a party and invited Panam and I. I asked if you could come along and he said sure" he told me as I smiled, "all right, come pick me up" I said hanging up and getting off the couch. I turned off the music and got into the shower. I took my shower, dried off, styled my hair, and got dressed.

Yep, you're wearing that outfit again.-Hoshi

~Time skip~

I was sitting on the couch at Kerry's place, music blasting, people talking, dancing, and just having a good time. I had a cup of soda in my hand, I had given up drinking after that night I went off on Johnny. "Hey, why are you sitting here by your lonesome?" asked someone as I looked at him, I knew who it was and I smiled. "Well, everyone here knows you personally, I'm only here because V asked you if I could come...but sometimes parties aren't my scenes..." I told him as he sat beside me, "you're Y/n right?" he asked as I nodded, "Johnny talks about you all the time, says you're an amazing woman" he spoke as I smiled, "it's nice to meet you too Kerry" I said as he smiled. We spent a few hours talking. That was when I saw Johnny talking to V and Panam, he was standing next to a woman and had his arm around her. "Hmm?" Kerry asked as he followed my eyes, "yeah, that's his new girl...she's a bitch" he mumbled, "I'm gonna go get some fresh air, it's getting kinda crowded in here" I spoke as I got up and walked outside, I sighed as I sat down on the chair he had outside. 'Of course, he'd get a girlfriend...' I mentally spoke as a man walked up to me. 'Here we go...' I thought.