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𝚛𝚎𝖺𝚕𝚒𝚣𝖺𝚝𝚒𝗈𝚗

𝚜𝗈𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚜 𝚕𝚒𝚏𝚎 𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚍 𝗈𝚏 𝚜𝗎𝚛𝚙𝚛𝚒𝚜𝚎𝚜 𝚢𝗈𝗎.

you can be used to something your whole life 

and then one day realize you were looking through the wrong side of the looking glass.

If they truly cared then, I wouldn't be feeling like shit rn

if they were truly there for me then why the actual fuck did i hurt so much

everything fucking hurts now

i really really hate this.

"im confused" i would say but now i know that i was just avoiding the truth

im not confused

im just avoiding change

i think i loved you i think i did truly

but again i was only 17 

i was dumb

i was stupid

i want ready for these kinds of things

i hate thinking 

i dont think ive ever truly experienced what its like to love and that hurts

thats what hurts the worst in this entire shit fest

"𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝗈 𝚑𝖺𝚟𝚎 𝚕𝗈𝚟𝚎𝚍 𝖺𝚗𝚍 𝚕𝗈𝚜𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝖺𝚗 𝚝𝗈 𝚑𝖺𝚟𝚎 𝚗𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚕𝗈𝚟𝚎𝚍 𝖺𝚝 𝖺𝚕𝚕"

i think that maybe i loved him-

i know that he loved me and i hate that he did

but when i think about it 

𝚒𝚝 𝚠𝖺𝚜 𝚑𝚒𝚖

and i hate myself for not realizing sooner-