DEAR SORRY GIRL.. jsc（✓）

#24

the guy who wrote me letters,

you took me to the beach again today. it really has become our spot, hasn't it? you still tell me the waves remind you if my hair and i still laugh. your compliments still make me blush as hard as they did back when we met.

you still haven't mentioned anything about the letters, jung sungchan. you probably didn't notice that your sister gave them to me, which is okay. that last one made me smile as hard as i did on our first date, but i really wish it wasn't the last.

you stopped writing them, and i like to think it's because i asked you to be my boyfriend.

i know, right? me asking you? woah, you probably malfunctioned. but that's okay.

you kept your promises from the letters you don't know i have. you still do your best to protect me, even though you taught me how to do it myself.

i'm sorry for saying sorry so much, even now. you know how much i hate confrontation, so "sorry" is always the safest way to go, to me.

i still see the way you flash a cute little pout when i apologize, calling me "sorry girl" and such, but it makes me smile. it was how we met, after all.

i wonder, if i hadn't apologized to you that day, would you still see me? when i bring this up, you snuggle me in your giant hoodie and kiss my cheeks and assure me that you would have found me eventually, and even if those are just words, they calm me.

none of your letters were this long, huh?

i never told you what was constantly going on inside my head back then, and you haven't asked, but i understand. i probably wouldn't ask, either.

i was too shy to admit it, but the thing that was always on my mind... was you. ironic, right?

why do you think i always blushed when you looked my way? i don't flush around just anyone, jung sungchan.

i'm glad shotaro and chenle teased you, it always made me snicker to myself. isn't it ironic how they say they like me more than you now? they're just joking, we know, but it's cute.

you're dream came true! i made friends! by stealing yours~

i'm running out of paper, so i'll wrap it up here. thank you, jung sungchan, for not giving up on me. for helping me. for seeing me.

i won't apologize for how we got here, because this mess of a sorry-filled journey led me to you. sorry for not telling you early about the letters, they meant too much to me.

i love you, and i hope you know you aren't getting any of your hoodies back.

your sorry girl,
bang yiseul