Please teach me how to love B.E.

Chapter 30

⚠️Triggering Warning:Panic Attack⚠️

Y/n Pov

Two days have passed and i get more stressed everyday because I'm scared to fail the test even if i know that know the things that might be in it, and the whole thing with my Parents is still bothering me but Billie helps me calm down most of the time.

Today we will learn for the Test even more and we will probably learn all-day long, with a few small breaks but it's ok so Billie and I got up and both took a shower and got dressed into something comfortable because we won't be leaving the house today, I then put my hair in a messy bun and Billie makes herself some space buns.

As we went downstairs we got greeted from everyone and then went off for breakfast we both just ate a bowl of cereal and an apple.

When we finished we got upstairs got our Learning papers and then went downstairs and sat at the table and started learning, Maggie once in a while came over to us and took a look if we were doing things right and if not she helped us.

After a few intense hours of learning we took a small break and doodled something to have a short break where we didn't had to think, and it was really nice since my Brain felt like it would explode if I would even try to thing about some school stuff.

Before we went on with learning we got ourselves a bottle of water and some chocolate to eat once in a while while learning.

We learned for a bit till we heard Maggie's phone Ding that she got a message but we kept going but Maggie then took Patrick with her to talk to him, they got a little louder with their talking but Billie and I didn't bother and kept learning.

After some time they got back and they didn't looked to happy but we just let them be if it is important they would tell us.

After a few more minutes of learning Maggie started preparing dinner for everyone and Billie and I decided to sit down on the couch and just relax for a bit what didn't really work for me but that's ok.

It took a little bit of time but then the Food was done and we all sat down and started eating after we were all done we sat there for a bit until Maggie told us she wants to talk to us.

She began and told us about the Message that she got and that it was from my parents, and that they said that they want me back over and don't want me staying here anymore.

First it shocked me then it made me angry because they don't care either way but lastly it stressed me so damn much because I don't want to go back to them and i'm scared that Maggie will send me back home again.

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I quickly got up from the table and walked away with a blurry vision and my breathing got irregular and quicker, I ran into the bathroom and locked the door and walked over to the wall that was across from the door.

I slid down the wall and sat on the floor a heard some fade voices but couldn't quite make out what they said, it felt like my heart was getting squeezed together and I couldn't get enough air into my Lungs i started gasping for Air but it didn't helped, i was shaking a little bit and my head was pounding so much and after some time everything went black.

Billie's Pov

As Mom told us that Y/n sat there for a bit not saying anything but then quickly got up and ran to the bathroom,I got up and went after her and made sure she was ok but she locked the door and I heard her breathing really quickly but it sounded as if she was gasping for air i tried talking to her but she didn't answer.

I called Mom over for help everyone came rushing in and looked at me and then heard Y/n gasping for air and they immediately tried to open the door but couldn't after some time you couldn't hear her anymore so i got more concerned, after a few seconds Dad then finally got the Door open and I immediately rushed in and sat her up and hugged her.

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Finneas then got in and picked her up and carried her to my Bed and layed her down on it, I asked Mom what it could have been and she told me that it could have been a Panic attack.

We all sat in my room and waited for her to wake up after about 15 minutes she slowly woke up again and looked around, she asked what has happened and Mom told her carefully and Y/n slowly started breathing faster again so Mom told her that she doesn't need to go back over again if she doesn't wants to.

Y/n nodded her head and her breathing slowed down again Fin got up and brought her some water if she was thirsty and she gladly took it and drank some.

We decided that we will just all try to relax a bit and then all go to sleep because it has been enough stress for a day, so everyone went off and we got dressed for bed cuddled us together and fell asleep in each other's arms.