FANGIRL

three : pain

When I opened the door

I saw Helix holding Alexa's waist and the two of them laughing with the ceo.

I just stood them and look at them. I'm like a ghost, they can't feel me even my mere presence. The three of them are laughing.

Alexa is the rumored past girlfriend of Helix. I thought it was just a rumor and its not true but I was wrong. There they are in front me laughing with each other, having fun. While me, still bearing the pain.

Helix looked at my direction and they all saw me. Helix, Alexa, Me and the ceo is here.

'Lauren' the ceo coldly said

'We'd like to talk to you' the ceo

We immediately sat down to talk.

'We decided to deny all the news about the relationship you have with Helix' ceo

What? They didn't even talked to me and yet they already decided what to do.

I looked at Helix, hoping that he would fight for us. Then he looked at me with a blank stare, blanko na para bang wala na lahat yung pagmamahal niya para sakin. I tried to smile at him but he looked away.

Doesn't he love me?

The ceo said that we will just deny everything.

'Who decided this?' me

'Us' Helix

I looked at him with disbelief.

'Without me?'

He looked away, can't answer.

'Look, we decided this for the best of our company' Alexa sarcastically said

'So, you also take part with this decision'

'Yes, problems with it?' Alexa

'Why you and not me?'

'Cause its me, its always me girl, since the very start its me, not YOU. So know your place.'

Why do I feel like this is all about Helix. Na para bang may kumpetisyon sa pagitan namin ni Alexa. Ang gusto ko lang naman na sabihin lang ang totoo about sa relationship namin ni Helix.

'How about just telling the truth' me

'The truth? About you and Helix' ceo

'Then tell me what's the truth? Totoo ba na kayo na? Na mahal mo sya ha?'
Alexa

Silence

I hesitated to answer, seeing how close Helix and Alexa are is making me uncomfortable. Hindi ko alam kung mag sasabi ako ng totoo, kasi ramdam kong mapapahiya lang ako. Akala ko mahal niya ako, pero si Alexa pa rin ba talaga?

'See, you can't even ans--

'I love him'

Tanga na kung tanga pero sige, ilalaban ko si Helix.

'Then Helix mahal mo ba si Lauren' ceo

I waited for his answer, nag ba baka sakali. But my expectations failed me. Siguro nga hindi seryoso si Helix sakin. Okay lang sana kung sabihin niya lang na hindi niya ko mahal baka kayanin ko pa. Pero yung makita ko sila ni Alexa na masaya na para bang ang sama sama kung tao na nakisingit pa ako sa kung anong meron silang dalawa. Paano kung ginamit lang ako ni Helix? Paano kung pampalipas oras niya lang pala ako. Pano kung sa lahat pala ng oras na kasama niya ko, si Alexa ang nasa isip niya?

'No' Helix

I can feel the pain throbbing inside me.

No, please Helix.