FANGIRL

five: gone

I thought that you'd remember, but it seems that you forgot
It's hard for me to blame you when you were already lost
Oh, yeah
I'm tired of always waiting
Oh, yeah, yeah
I see you changed your number, that's why you don't get my calls
I gave you all of me, now you don't wanna be involved
Oh, yeah, yeah
I really gotta face it
Oh, yeah, yeah

I just wanna be the one
But to you we're already done
Tell me, why'd you have to hit and run me?
Now I'm all alone, crying ugly
You broke my heart just for fun
Took my love and just left me numb
Now it's eight in the morning
Hate in the morning (All because of you)

Another story that's sad and true
I can feel the pain, can you?
You had to be the one to let me down to color me blue
Hate to see you with someone new
I'll put a curse on her and you
Ain't no looking back, now you're dead and gone
My love is gone too

All my love is go-o-o-o-o-o-o-ne
All my love is go-o-o-o-o-o-o-ne
All my love is go-o-o-o-o-o-o-ne
All my love is gone
Now you're dead and gone

I ended the song  beautifully and opened my eyes.

Someone's infront of me and looking at me intently, someone I didn't expected to see.

Bakit ba sa tuwing masaya ako saka ka magpapakita? Bakit ba mukha mo lagi nakikita ko? Bakit ba laging ikaw?

We're staring at each other pero umiwas na agad ako. Mas mabuti na ito.

I immediately returned to our table and I can see that everyone's looking at me with a sad and pitiful eyes.

'I already pity myself enough so don't give me that pitiful eyes' I said to them

There's a part of me that doesn't want to appear weak and inferior.

'Mind if I'll join you?' Helix

Helix sat infront of me. I can feel the heavy atmosp---

'hahahaha' Hakeem forced a laugh to lighten the atmosphere

'Masyadong peke pre, ulitin mo pa' rinig kong bulong ni Allen

'HAHAHAHAH!' Hakeem

'Para ka namang si santa claus' Allen

'E kung ikaw kaya tumawa, hirap na hirap nako dito mukha na 'kong clown' Hakeem

Natawa na lang ako.

'Kayong dalawa rinig na rinig namin kayo, anong klaseng bulungan yan?' pag si simula ko. Mas mabuti nang magsalita to ease the atmosphere.

'Hehe, ganon ba. Sorry ha, ang tense kasi para kaming malalagutan na kami ng hininga' sabi ni Allen

'Okay nga 'yon eh' Kace

'Ha?' Allen

'Mabaho kasi hininga mo' Walang pake na sinabi ni Hakeem habang kumakain

Natawa na lang kami. Pero I can still feel Helix's gaze on me. I felt a little uneasy.

'Let's drink' Helix

Napatingin kami sa kanya. Drink? May balak ba siyang mag pakalasing.

'Bet!' Soleil

Ito talagang si Soleil, g na g pagdating sa alcohol.

'Sige, bibili lang kami saglit' pag papa alam ni Hakeem at Joshua.

After how many minutes nakabalik na rin sila. Buti na lang walang masyadong weird na nangyari nung umalis yung dalawa.

'Cheers! Woohooo!' sabay sabay nilang sabi.

I don't usually drink but should I? I'll just taste it. Hmm... I probably should try a little.

Iinumin ko na sana ang alak na nasa harap ko but Helix grabbed my hand and eyed me intently. I can see his beautiful yet cold eyes.

'You don't drink'

'I'm gonna try'

'No, don't drink' he softly said

That caught me off guard. I saw his soft and cute side again that made me submissive of him. I give up my drink and followed him. Honestly I don't even plan to look at him but everything just flashbacks his cold eyes, sweet tone and dominant aura. I feel home when I'm with him.

Pumunta muna akong restroom dahil puputok na ang pantog ko.

After many minutes, lumabas na rin ako ng makita ko si Helix leaning on the sink. Damn he looks so hot.

I don't know if I should talk to him but I feel like just walking past him. So I did walk pass by him but he grabbed me in my arm and now I can see how hot he is.

'W-what?' nanginginig kong sagot

'I'm sorry' A while ago he looks damn hot but now he's like a puppy begging for something.

'H-huh?'

'Sorry for everything, everything that I did. It's my fault, sorry, I'm really sorry'

'Then?'

'I want to say sorry and uhm... I beg you please stay with me lau, please?'

How come he looks so adorable now. All the pain I've felt has been casted away. Finally he's here again and now I'm ready to forgive him.

I hugged him tight.

'Finally you're here in my arms again, I love you Helix'

He also hugged me tight.

'You will always be my home babe, I love you more'

'Also stop saying sorry Helix, I finally forgi---

His phone ranged.

'Hello?' Helix

He walked outside the bathroom to talk privately.

After a few minutes, he came back. I was supposed to say that I finally forgive him but he cuts me off.

'I think I can't be with you' Helix

'H-ha?' kinakabahan kong sabi

'I don't want to be with you'

'A-ano 'to prank? Helix ano bang sinasabi mo? Hindi ka na nakakatuwa'

'Alexa got involved in a car crash, she's in the hospital she needs me'

...

'Don't I need you?'

He became quiet

'Sa tingin mo ba hindi kita kailangan? Helix kailangan na kailangan kita lalo na ngayon. I want to feel your embrace and touches. Don't you know how hard it is for me to accept all the commotions happening? Hirap na hirap din ako kaya please 'wag ka namang umalis. Stay with me just like you said earlier, please' I pleased while sobbing my eyes out

'I can't, she badly needs me'

Aalis na siya pero pilit ko parin siyang hinahatak at nagmamakaawa. I don't want to be this desperate but if its for him then I will do everything.

'Please, p-please H-helix...' I said bawling my eyes out

My arms felt weak at tuluyan ko ng nabitawan si Helix. He walked away.

Pag ka uwi ay agad akong umiyak ng umiyak ng parang baliw. My heart is suffering.

Vote, God Bless!