Amnesia [C.H]

awkward news

Maybe having Calum and Jake together at Starbucks, wasn't the best idea ever. It was very, very, awkward. 

I look up from the drink, Calum was glaring at Jake while Jake was looking at me. "I think we can all agree this is awkward.." Jake laughed lightly. I nod stirring my drink, talk Amber. Jesus. 

"I don't like you." Calum said looking at Jake with a, very, serious expression. 

Oh god.

"Well don't worry Hood, the feeling is mutual." Jake laughed. I looked between them, my eyes widened. "Amber doesn't like you either." Calum added. I couch choking on my drink, "What?" Jake and I said together. "She doesn't like you, mate." Calum said smiling.

"Me! You're the one that forgot about her for two years! She nearly killed herself!

Jake, you fucking dick.

"She what?" Calum breathed looking over at me, "You're joking right?" he asked looking back over at Jake. "No, she was dying. In and out of the hospital while you were touring the world fucking groupies." Jake shakes his head. I kick him under the table, and he looks over. He shrugs with a small smile, "Well, seems like you two have loads to talk about. Later Amber. Calum." he stands up grabbing his drink before walking out.

"Did-did you really try killing yourself?" Calum asked moving the chair closer. I look down stirring my drink again, "Not exactly." I shrug. "Amber, talk to me." he pushed. "I starved myself. I didn't eat, a cutted a few times but I stopped. I've been clean for over a year, but the doctors still say I have a problem." I say looking around. "But I seen you eat, I saw you eat a lot." He said shaking his head.

I look over at him licking my lips nervously, "Yeah but it really didn't stay in." I say softly. "Course it didn't, through the cycle Am." he laughed. I shake my head, "Oh." he said softly. "You made yourself, oh." he said sitting back. "I'm sorry." I say looking down.

"No, no. Don't apologize." he shakes his head. "When was the last time you kept it in?" he asked. "A week, maybe more." he frowns. "Amber." he said softly. 

"I'm sorry."
"Shut up."
"Sorry."
"Stop."
"So-"
"No."

"I'll help you, you're going to get through this. I'll help you."