Life Starter {H.S}

Chapter 8

Last time on the ' Life Starter ' :

Harry kissed her on the forehead, nose, and now...

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He leaned in closer to my lips and-

"Guys! Hurry the hell up!"

Zayn yelled, bursting the door open. Soon he realized what was going on.

"Oh, sorry."

He chuckled slightly. He closed the door, slowly. Harry sighed and smiled. Jesus Christ, my God, this man, this boy thing is just perfect. He grasped onto my hand and leaned in toward me once more, like he had moments ago ;

"Sorry. For that back there. I'm sure I wouldv'e regretted anyways."

He grabs my hand and leads me out the door, to walk together with the boys. I feel as if I've just been stabbed with a prison knife. My body becomes uneasy, uncomfortable. I did really want to kiss him, but apparently, for him, only in the light of the moment. I wish Zayn hadn't opened the door. I wish to think Harry would've actually kissed me. I tense up once again, hoping he doesn't notice. His arm around my shoulders, kept sliding down. This time his arm never returned around my shoulders. He slowed down, leaving the boys to walk ahead of us. I give a questioning look.

"What's wrong? You seem upset."

Harry's eyes are full of concern and worry. I don't think I have ever seen a boy be so cute, but sad at the same time. I shrug my shoulders up, then right back down.

"I really don't know."

Harry looks at me, probably confused. No boy would every understand a lady's emotion, especially if she was a REALLY emotional person. Harry's face changes to a look of thinking. I imagine him with a chef's hat, but have it as a 'thinking cap'. Harry thinks for a minute, as I look to no longer see the boys ahead of us. I sadden a bit, standing awkwardly with Harry in front of me. I wish I could talk to Tyler. Hell, maybe even Marcus.

"Is it because of what I said earlier? When I'd said I would probably regret it?"

Bingo. Right on the mark. An extra $500 for you, sir. I become shy at the thought that he just didn't want to kiss me. Straight forward. Maybe he just wasn't attracted to me like that. You mean to tell me he did all that stuff earlier because he WASN'T attracted to you? Boy, I took that whole kiss-y type scene the wrong way... Brain, I don't know if he does or not. I'm not a mind reader. By the way Brain, where have you been? That's not important right now. But, Alexis, he's not a brain reader either. Answer him for God's sake.

" A little bit."

I reply finally. I need to go. To the bathroom, outside, anywhere where I could just keep reveling my own secret I've been doing for years. I mean, how on Earth did you think I got this skinny?

" I didn't mean I'd regret kissing you."

Oh thank God and the holy heavens above. The weight that took presence minutes ago has been uplifted and has gone away.

"I just meant that if I kissed you when Zayn walked in, I would've never heard the end of it."

He smiled with a wide grin. Pretty teeth, pretty smile, all in one good package. This time, his smile made me giggle like a child who had won a free lollipop.

" You alright now?

"Yes, I'm fine now."

" I mean, I didn't do all that stuff earlier to not kiss you. I plan on kissing you later, I don't know when, but later."