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I'm Sorry

Hannah's POV.

It's been 3 weeks since Grace's accident and she still doesn't remember us being together..

Everyday has been getting worse and worse, I started to drink more, I don't talk to Mamrie or Grace as much anymore, I rarely get out of the house, I started to smoke..and the worse part is that I don't even like the taste, I just do it because it's slowly killing me..

I also started self-harming again..Grace and Mamrie dont notice anything has changed with me, good thing I took Improve..they just ask why we don't hang out anymore, I just tell them that Im busy because of meetings and family and that Im sick and a bunch of other excuses..

They seem to buy it..

Grace's POV.

A few days after my accident I lied and said that I remembered what Chester did, but I said that that's all that came back.

Hannah has been acting very weird lately and Im starting to get worried..

For one thing she's started to wear long sleeves for quite a while now, and I know why but I don't want to say anything that will upset her...But it kills me that she's hurting herself because of me..

I told Mamrie that I don't have memory loss and that I remember dating Hannah and being madly in love with and still am..Mamrie kind of understood why I was doing this, she knows that I don't like people worrying about me..

She also said that I was doing the wrong thing and that I should go see Hannah and tell her everything..and just make everything back to normal how it used to be.

So after 3 weeks of thinking I decided thats what im gonna do,

and tell Hannah everything..

Hannah's POV.

It was a thursday night and all I was thinking about was Grace, all of our wonderful memories that we shared, all the magical kisses that I experienced with her and no one else, the warm touch of her skin, the nights we would spend cuddled together watching movies or even just sitting infront of each other with our legs around each other just talking. I missed staring into her hazel brown eyes that I always get lost in.. I miss her laugh, her smile, her akward hands, her sweet smell, her hair...

I miss Grace so much...

I smile to myself thinking about her while a tear rolls down my cheek, I could do it anymore, I got up went to the fridge and took 5 bottles of different strong alcohol, I started to chug them all down until my vision came blurry, tears kept rolling down my cheeks.. I went to the living room and sat on the floor, I take out a tile from the floor reveiling my blade..

I pick up and started sliding it across my wrist, I start to feel dizzy and nauseous, everything goes dark but I can still hear a faint noise of someone screaming my name...

Grace's POV.

It is 10:45pm on a thursday night, I don't bother texting or calling Hannah, I just grab my keys and head out

..

I walk up tp her door and knock, she doesn't answer..

Buy nothing is gonna stop me tonight

I bend down and lift up her mat and take the key she has hid under there, I slip it in the key hole and turn right..

I open the door and see Hannah...on the floor drifting away with gushing blood down her arm

"Hannah!" I yell in horror

I run to her and try to shake her to keep her up, she doesnt wake up..

I take my phone out and call 911

A few minutes later the ambulance has arrived, they put her on a stretcher and bring her into the ambulance.

"Would you like to come ride in the back?" The paramedic asks me

"Ya, will she be ok?"

"Well first we have to know what she consumed and depending on how deep she has cut, but well let you know for sure."

I nod and climb in the back of the ambulance.

~2 HOURS LATER~

Hannah's POV.

I wake up and see that Im not home in my living room, I look at my surroundings and realize im in the hospital.

I try to sit up and feel a sharp pain in my left arm, I look at my wrist and see a bandage starting at my wrist going up my arm.

I hear a door open and see a nurse, she looks at me and smiles and walks out.

few seconds the door opens again but this time it wasnt a nurse it was Grace..

Grace's POV.

I walk into Hannah's room and look at her I backup to the wall and slide down so that now im sitting on the cold hard hospital floor.

I bend my knees up and put my head between them and place my hands behind my neck, and start crying uncotrolably.

I hear ruffling coming from Hannah's bed then feel 2 hands touch me. I look up and see Hannah on her knees infront of me. I get on my knees and hug her.

I pull away from the hug and stare at her vibrant blue eyes, I place a hand on the side of her face, I give her a small weak smile and lean in..

I kiss Hannah pasionately, I missed the feel of her lips, I missed how she tasted, I missed her touch, I missed her so much and I feel like I dont deserve her after what ive done to her...but I needed this and she needed this..

I pull away, resting my forehead on hers,

"I'm sorry..."