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What Did She Want To Say?

Grace's POV.

"Hannah..It was Hannah.." Mamrie says quietly

I don't react, I just stare at her..

Right when she said her name, I got butterflies in my stomach, My body tensed up, my hands were getting sweaty. I close my eyes and put my hands into a fists.

"Grace! Are you ok?"

I let out a deep breath, I open my eyes slowly,

"Im fine, just help me get up"

Mamrie stands up right away, she takes my arm carefully and helps me up. Once im up I balance myself, I take Mamrie's hand and walk towards the door.

we walk out the door of the room, I walk into the kitchen..

Hannah's there..

Hannah heres us and turns around, her face goes blank. We both just stand there staring at each other..

Im the first to look away, I tense up and squeeze Mamrie's hand,

"It's ok Grace.." Mamrie whispers in my ear.

I nod and walk towards the kitchen, I lean my back onto the corner. I take my phone and text Mamrie something.

Mamrie looks at her phone reading the message, she looks up from her phone, she looks at me and gives me a smile and nods.

"Hey guys, im gonna head over to the store.. so ill be out for a bit, Hannah take care of Grace..will ya?" She says looking at Hannah

"mhm, don't worry." She finishes looking at me.

Mamrie leaves and its just the two of us..

"Do you need anything Graci...Grace?" She hesitates

Yeah, you.

"No, im fine."

She nods and walks up to me. She puts a hand on my shoulder and stares deep into my eyes,

"How've you been?"

I feel tears filling, I look up at her with a fake, sarcastic smile,

"I've been...Great!" I say sarcastically.

I stand up straight and start to walk away. Hannah grabs my wrist and turns me around, she pulls me towards her.

She takes her thumbs and wipes the tears away, she pushes a piece of strand of hair out of my face,

"Tell me what's wrong..." She says, obviously hurt.

I take her hand and sit on the couch, I turn my body so that im facing her, I put my head down and start to play with my hands.

"When I left, I went to New York..I thought that I could start over. I was there for a couple of months and I met this guy, Josh. We dated for a couple weeks, and then he asked me to move in with him and I agreed...worst mistake of my life...

I was now crying,

A few days after me moving in, he seemed to be angry more often, he would become agressive..One day he went to far and..he hit me... He had realized what he had done and apologized right away and said it wouldnt happen ever again..I believed him and forgave him..It never stopped. Everyday he would add to the bruises and cuts. Everyday his apologies meant less and less.. Until one day he didnt apologize, he would just walk away. Hannah..I've missed you so much, I've missed your touch, the way your lips fit perfectly with mine, the way I would feel after everyday spent with you...but Hannah I don't know if I can trust you, I that hurts me so much! I want to trust you and I wanna love you, but I just...can't. I just want you to know that I still love you and I always will.."

My eyes are red and puffy from all the crying, I look at Hannah and tears are sliding down her face, but she still has a straight face. 

She was about to say something but Mamrie came in the door.

I stood up right away and head to my bedroom, I close the door behind me.

What did she want to say?