Not In The Same Way

Chapter 19

Seulgi Pov.

Morning came

I can feel my puffy eyes especially since I cried all night yesterday

So I had to wear a sunglass that I borrowed from Yeri

I wanted to leave the camping site so bad so I quickly brought my bags at the bus

When I went there I quickly gave my bags to the conductor for him to bring it inside when suddenly I heard Wendy's voice

"Seulgi!" She called me out but I didn't look at her direction instead I acted like I didn't hear her voice

Instead of talking to her I talk to the conductor "When will we leave?" I asked him

"before 8am ma'am" the conductor said with a smile

"ugh.. Okay, thank you" I thanked the guy and bowed as I started to walk away from the bus since I knew Wendy was still behind me and I still think I can't deal with her yet

"Seulgi, wait!" she yelled

I still tried to act like I couldn't hear her call me but then suddenly someone hold my wrist and made me face her...no other than Wendy

"Seulgi" she called again

We were at the field where the mini movie theater was held yesterday

"did you call me?" I asked

I know it's stupid but I had to try right?

She gave me an unbelievable look

"I called you like a dozen times" she pointed out

"No I didn't hear quite well" I denied

"Seul, tell me what's going on? Why are you being like this?" she ask me with pleaded eyes

There were no sounds that came out of my mouth

"is this last night? Why didn't you show up last night? What happened last night?" she asked again

"I showed.....up last night I just didn't finish the movie that's all" I tried to reason out but....

"is it because of Irene?" she asked

"Irene?" I was confused on why unnie is being drag in our conversation

"you didn't finish the movie because you confess to her" she responded

Wait, What?!

"I saw you two by the lake yesterday, did she by chance didn't...return your feelings? Is that why you cried?"

I look at her with unbelievable expression, how? Just how could she still not see my love for her after what she saw last night?

"Wendy you are one of the smartest people I know but at the same time you're also tbe most stupid" I stated

Her eyes were filled with confusion as she look at me

"wh..what?" that's the only thing she could say to me

I sighed

Not now...

Not yet..

This is not the right time to tell her what my feelings are...

I pulled my hand from her and turn around, I just wanna go home

I left her there dumbfounded not knowing what else to do but just walk away
*****
Taeyeon was still talking to Tiffany and Irene was still talking to Mr.Han

While I quickly stood up and walk out of the bus I could see Wendy looking at me while Jungkook was talking to her

I took my bags and went straight to the Hanna unnie who was already waiting

"So how was it?" She ask happily

"Not good" the only words I could say as I open the trunk and put my bags inside

"That bad huh?" She ask as she tap my shoulder and help put my bags inside

And soon Taeyeon and Irene unnie join us

*****
I was now at the plane

Taeyeon, Hanna, and Irene unnie were the ones who sat together while I chose to sat by myself which afcourse they agreed in the first place

Since Hanna unnie also want to ask the two what happened this weekend so she let me be 

After the pilot spoke they played some songs for us to not get bored but honestly I preferred to get bored than listen

Because the first song they played was something that really hit me

'Why Won't You Love Me'
by 5 seconds of summer

Why?
Why?

Switching into airplane mode again
We're not alright but I'll pretend
Press my cheek against the glass
Just be good 'til I get back

I went and lean at the window and watch as the plane started to move

I hate this feeling, the feeling heartbreak

The ground disappears
I hold back the tears
I check my phone to see your face
Staring back as if to say
Don't worry, you won't be lonely

I felt the song like it was written for me since that's what I really felt..

Why won't you love me?
Why won't you love me?
You imagine when you close your eyes
You're with me on the other side
So why won't you love me?

Few drinks deep at a table for one
The place we like to go and you take yourself home again
Three missed calls at 2 a.m.
You say you never heard
You're late to get to work and then

The time disappears
You hold back the tears
Your best girlfriend just got engaged
You say you can't wait and need to make a change
You told me it's so hard to be lonely

Why won't you love me?
Why won't you love me?
We're together, all alone tonight
So helpless from the other side
So why won't you love me?

Can you tell me why, my love? Can you tell me why?
I hold on to you and you hold on to me

Can you tell me why, my love? Can you tell me why?
I hold on to you and you hold on
Why won't you love me?
Why won't you love me?
Why won't you love me?

You imagine when you close your eyes
You're with me on the other side
So why won't you love me?

As the song ended tears were already falling down my face

Again I was crying

I couldn't believe how Wendy can easily make me cry...

"I'll see you next week Wendy-ah" I whispered at the wind right before the plane flew up the sky...