Becoming

Chapter 3

Juniper convinced me to go to the football game with her, she said she would be lonely without me but I countered back and said I would be bored. She told games were so fun and the parties were even better, I gave in to her as always she just has a way of getting what she want. School was over at 3, and Juniper had cheer practice so she dropped me off at my house and waved bye.

The football game starts at 7, four more hours. What do I even do? I could clean my room while listening to music. I should do my homework but I don't care about grades enough. I hate waiting I am very impatient. While I'm weighing my options out I feel a hand on my shoulder and I jump and spin around and see Rob smiling down at me. Rob was about 6'1 and had broad shoulders, so he hovered over me but instead of feeling scared I felt protected and safe.

"Hello, Batya sorry I didn't mean to scare you, how was school?"

I reply "fine, what are you doing here?"

He gives a weird and confused face "Your mom wants me to fix your tv."

Oh yeah, I remember now, I smirk and hold out my hand and say: "Ladies first."

He snorts and walks into our small house and walks into the kitchen that leads into the living room. He sits down and turns the TV around. "So batya I had commation last night sounded serious are you okay?"
I smiled at him caring, I sigh and say "I am okay My mom just has a temper sometimes as you know."
I talk about my problems with my mom alot to Rob he never judges he always just listens and tries to lead me towards being more caring. He once tried to get my mom to a rehabilitation but she refused saying 'she was fine' but obliviously that was not the case.
He frowned, "If you ever need to spend the night you are more then welcome too, besides I could use the company."
"You could just start dating again?" I instantly cringed at the idea.
Noticing this he said "thanks for the suggestion but I would rather be alone for now." We make more small talk about 20 minutes  I walk to the washer and open it and grab my blanket and put them in the dryer. While I'm still doing this, I hear Rob humming a song and I turn my ear to listen. I walk to him and ask him what he's humming.

"Annabeth and I's wedding song" He stops and thinks for a minute. "We used to dance to it all the time. She was a terrible dancer" He said smiling. Annebeth passed away from a heart attack 2 years ago Rob is still in love and wanted to go be with her, but keeps insisting it is not his time. She was 82, He is 85 it is strange to me that he is still working and walking. Considering he is getting older but he is pretty healthy. They were married for 53 years. When she died he and I's family become close he is a super sweet man. I think of him as my grandfather. He always asks me if I am okay and if I need him to pick me up he is always there for me, but I think he is lonely sometimes but I do not mind his company he brings this sort of peace with him. "Well I better get started on this," he said shaking me out of my thoughts giving me a small smile. I nodded and went upstairs to my room.

I sit on my bed and start to think about how they were married for 53 years being committed to just one person for so long is crazy to me. Wouldn't it be boring no excitement just the same person? Wondering this I decide I am going to ask Rob this. I walk downstairs and stand to the side watching Rob. I start "How can you be with the same person for 53 years it makes no sense to me wouldn't you bored?" Making him jump he says "scared me," he thinks for a minute figuring out what to say.

"I think that it was the love for each other that made both of us stay. Marriage isn't easy it takes hard work. There were plenty of times She and I wanted to leave but couldn't because we loved each other. No marriage is perfect but she is my better half and without that half I just feel empty. It was like my heart was torn in two when she left and without a whole heart it's impossible to function right. Does that make sense?" Holding his hand to his heart.

"Yes I think, I am a bit young to understand complex things like Love. Thank you Rob"  Satisfied I walk up to my room, and just lay on my bed Maybe I wasn't supposed to understand love the universe would show me if it wanted it to.

Eventually I felt my eyes fall, I didn't feel the sleep coming over me but I eventually fell asleep.

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I see a yellow-greenish field. The sun is setting Displaying beautiful colors. Yellow pink and orange it was the most beautiful sunset I have ever seen. I start walking and enjoy the simple blaze of the grass and the sounds of bugs and crickets. The whistle of the wind blows in my ear. I close my eyes and breathe in deeply and smell the clearest air my lungs have ever treated.
  I hear a purr like a cat makes. I open my eyes and in the distance I see a lion a beautiful lion in fact. Lying the ground near a rock I start to walk towards the lion. When I come closer I see a lamb causally lying next to the lion, sleeping. Normally I would freak out and at least try to save the lamb, but I just feel this incredible peace. The lion looks like its sleeping. I admired the lion for a moment he looks so soft, and his fur so perfect. His eyes open and stares at me right in the eyes and I can see a blazeing fire of orange and red, in his eyes but his eyes were comforting and he searched my soul while staring into my eyes, but I knew he already knew me. His eyes were saying something but all I could focus on was a ringing.

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I woke to hear the phone ring I pick it up and say "hello"  not looking at the name. Trying to shake off the dream.

"Batya, are you ready the game is going to start in 30 minutes. I am on my way to your house."

I sat up and rub my eyes I look at the clock on my bedstand. It read 6:32 I have been asleep for 3 and a half hours. 

"Sorry, I fell asleep lost track of time I guess," I said still drowsy.  "Well be ready I'll be there in 10 minutes."

I say bye and hung up. I sat up and walk to my closet and pull out a crop top and some jeans I quickly put them on and go to my bathroom looking at my reflection. My hair is fuzzy from sleeping on it and my makeup is messed up. I quickly wipe out my makeup and start over. 

Once my makeup is done I brush my hair and letting it flow down my back. With that, I leave the bathroom and grab my purse, and going out the door just in time to see Juniper pull up I get in and shut the door. 

I start the conversation by saying, "How was cheer practice?" Juniper replies "It was good, we just practiced for the game today but I saw Brad kept on looking at me." She said smirking.

Juniper kept on going on about Brad and cheer. My mind kept on going back to what Rob about Annebeth being the better half of her. I thought about my life and everyone in my life, and realized I didn't love anyone that deeply not my dad because I was a child. My mom I loved her when she was sober, but hated her when she was drunk. I love Andy but not that kind of love. I have never loved a boy most boys just want one thing so it is hard to love them, to be honest, I don't like feeling like I am an object. it disgusts me.  

"Batya, are you listening to anything I said?" Shaking me out my thoughts. I said, "No, sorry."

"Well, I geuss you are learning from the master. I perfected it over the years, really comes in handy when you need it."
She said flashing me a grin.

I couldn't help but roll my eyes and laugh.

About 10 minutes later we arrive at the game.

Hey guys so sorry if this chapter is no good I tried my best. But next chapter is hopefully going to be better.
Thanks for reading :)