Moon Goddess

07

Gaya nga ng sinabi ni E, bantay sarado na nga ako ngayon.

Halos dalawang linggo na rin simula ng fiesta sa bayan. Hindi na rin kami nagkita pa ni Egon dahil pinili ko rin muna hindi tumakas, baka mahuli pa ako at mas lalong lumaki ang tampuhan namin ni Tia.

Hindi rin pa kami nagkausap ng masinsinan ni Tia after non. Si grandmama lang ang kumausap sa akin. Tio was disappointed at me also.

"You remind me so much of your mom." Sabi niya.

"Mahilig din tumakas 'yon. Kasama pa ang Tia mo dati. But now, you can't blame your Tia in being so overprotective of you. Your the only thing her sister has left in this world. She can't lose you too. You understand that right?"

Matapos ang pag uusap namin ni Grandmama mas lalo lang ako na guilty.

But I can't help it.

Simula bata pa ako, I have always wanted to see things but more importantly to understand them. Being here, seeing all these places I barely understand any of it. Kahit nga sariling kapangyarihan ko hindi ko rin maintindihan.

I want to know more. I want to trust what I know more in this world but how if I don't even understand what I know.

Other than that, I also want to be a righteous queen and help Tia carry whatever burden she's carrying right now. They think they're protecting me by not telling me things, but I feel like most all problems in the world starts when you stop communicating.

Pagkatapos ng training ko ngayong araw naligo ako kaagad. Nang umalis na si Mina pagkatapos ko mag dinner, dumiretso ako sa lagoon.

I don't know why, but I wanna see Egon.

Wala siya dito sa lagoon. Mag isa pa lang ako. Hindi ko nga alam kung pupunta ba 'yon. Sana pumunta.

Nagtatampo o nainis kaya sakin 'yon?

Baka na intimidate kay Tia. O nasaktan. Tia did judge him.

Tumingin ako sa langit. Wala ang buwan ngayong gabi. Pero alam ko na nakatingin parin sakin si Queen Amaris and all the other former moon princesses kaya nagsalita na lang ako habang nakatingin sa itaas.

"I'm sorry," I said aloud. "Sorry for being so reckless and stubborn."

Bigla ko na lang naisip na baka galit din sila sa inaasal ko. Maybe they are also disappointed. Regretting too na ako ang pinili nila. The Queendom is doing the best to protect me from people who took and murder former princesses yet I am here being so stubborn and reckless.

"I'm sorry that I can't help it. Sorry."

Nakayakap ako sa paa ko habang nakayuko, pikit pikit ang mga mata ng maramdaman ko ang isang tela na bumalot sa katawan ko.

When I looked up, it was E. He's kneeling in front of me, putting his cloak on me. Wala pala akong suot na cloak, I forgot.

Nang kinalas ko ang pagkakayakap sa paa ko, tinali na niya yung tali ng cloak sa may leeg ko.

I just looked at him and when he was done putting the cloak on me he looked back at me. Then, he smiled. A soft smile.

"Stupid. You always talk to things that can't reply to you huh." He chuckled.

Ilang buwan ko na rin nakilala si E. And his chuckles are always cute.

Umupo siya sa tabi ko. "Why are you apologizing to the sky, huh? I'm the one you ditched two weeks ago."