Dream didn't sleep at all that night. He woke up in the middle of the night after having a nightmare. He couldn't remember what had happened but he was sure it was something bad as he was very sweaty and a tear was almost falling down his face. The bed was messy and his oversized hoodie was laying on the floor. Outside it was pouring rain. The small raindrops were hitting the rooftop of his house, making tinkling sounds every now and then. He was thinking about what would have happened if he was outside right now. Would the rain falling down on him, penetrating his clothes, make Dream feel better? Would it be like in those romance books, a calm feeling? Would it make him forget about his problems if he was right now outside, alone?
Or would it just be a waste of time? Would the wet clothes make him feel uncomfortable? The rain would mess up his hair and finally he would be very cold and realize that life is not like the books. You won't stand in the rain with your lover while holding each others hand. It would just be...a waste of time.
He wished to know what the nightmare was about, but everytime he would close his eyes to try and remember, he would only see a black image. He tried going back to sleep, but he couldn't. He tried laying on the bed, recreating his nightmare, but he couldn't imagine anything. He was confused about why he was that scared when he woke up. What could he have dreamt?
As he was laying in bed, looking at the cracks in the ceiling, the sun started to slowly flood his room. The birds were quietly chirping on the branches of the trees that were now swinging in the warm wind. It was another hot day in Florida, but the rain from a few hours ago cooled down the streets. The cars didn't even start making noises. Everybody was waking up right now to go to work. But Dream? He was already awake.
The boy unplugged his phone from the charger and read his notifications. There were messages from Tommy. He is so annoying. Dream said to himself. He looked at a few fanarts that the community made in which he was tagged and liked a few of them, but he didn't want to comment. He just wanted to lay in his bed all day, in his t-shirt and his sweatpants and just think. Think about his life. In the last few days he barely had time for himself. He knew it. In fact, everyone did. He was so busy coding for some videos and recording and taking care of the SMP that he just forgot about him. He forgot he had a life outside of his house. He forgot his family, his real life friends, he even forgot about his cat, Patches, who was now purring in his bed almost asleep.
He opened Discord and he responded to some of the messages that were sent to him. Then he messaged Sapnap.
"Hi Sapnap."
The animation of him typing appeared.
"Why are you not sleeping? It's like 5 am." He said to Dream
Dream responded back. "Oh, I just couldn't fall asleep. I've been trying for 5-6 hours but no luck."
"Is it another nightmare?" Sapnap asked. "You know you can tell me anything, right? I'm here for you."
"Yes, I know. I just don't know why I can't remember my nightmares. The only thing I know is that I wake up scared and sweaty but nothing comes back to my memory."
Sapnap has seen his message, but no response.
"Enough about this. Why aren't you sleeping?" Dream asked his friend
"Oh, after you and George left, I stayed a bit on the call to see if someone was streaming or something, and Karl joined. We both fell asleep and I just woke up a few minutes ago." He told him
"Is he still sleeping?"
"Yes, I think so". He clicked his mouse a few times to check the voice chat. "Yeah, like I said. He is still in discord."
"Oh. Well he is going to wake up eventually. I think I'm going to wake Gogy up, don't you think?" Dream smiled even tho he knew that Sapnap couldn't see him.
"You should definitely do that."
As he changed his chat and started typing, George sent him a message before he could even finish it.
"Are you awake?" He read
"I was just texting you right now." Dream said
"Well, I texted you first." George told him
"So you were thinking about me?" The blond boy sent, followed by a smirk face emoji.
"You are such an idiot, you know that, right?" He could hear George saying with his morning voice
"I'm your idiot" he responded with. He was just about to delete it. Why did he even sent it in the first place?, he was thinking. But George was already typing.
"Ok Dream, I'm going to eat something. You should do it too."
He knew it made him uncomfortable. He fucked up. He knew he shouldn't have said that to him.
"I will, Georgie, don't worry." He typed
"Okay, talk to you later." George ended the conversation
He was asking himself if he was in fact eating or he just said it to get out of that awkward place. He felt so stupid.
He got up and went to the bathroom. He splashed his face a few times with cold water and then went to the kitchen. The sunlight was breaking through the big windows. Dream opened the fridge and got himself the remains of the dinner he had last night and heated it. The taste was good; not that good as last night but it made him full.
He pushed the button and opened his PC. He opened twitter and stayed for like 20 minutes before he thought, "why not go outside?"
And so he did, he got his car keys and went for the car. The people were already driving. Not many of them, but it was enough for him to not feel alone anymore.
He started the car and drove for a looong time. He didn't even turn his GPS on. He just drove his car to places he's never been before. He could feel the wind go through his cracked window. He felt so good while driving, he felt free.
Suddenly he started thinking about his friends. About Sapnap, about Bbh, about George. Were they good? Did they eat? Did they sleep well? Did they still love him?
He wanted to call them. Right then he realised he forgot his phone at home. Shit. Dream thought.
He was already driving for two and a half hours. He couldn't go back. Not now. He had to clear his mind. This is supposed to be his day off.
As the music was blasting from the speakers, he was accelerating, going so fast now. He forgot about everything, he was so calm and happy. He wanted to be like that everyday. But he knew he couldn't. Not as long as George was always on his mind.
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I will find you // Dreamnotfound
Fiksi Penggemar~Story: Dream has a lot of friends. George and Sapnap are a few of them. They are always talking, recording videos and spending time together. You would think that their friendship couldn't be any more perfect. But you are so wrong. As Dream starts...
