Forever His | A Kylo Ren Assassin AU

Divide

TWs; mentions of terrorist activity, threats of violence/death, dub-con, mentions of smut.

In the warmth of the water, cradled in Kylo's arms with his hand gently stroking your damp hair back, yours tracing lightly down the lines of his muscular chest and back up again, it was almost easy to forget the rest of the world. Forget that you'd ended up where you were against your will. 

The bathroom in his bedroom was like something out of a magazine. Though it was the second time you'd been in it, you hadn't exactly stopped to take in the scenery before. Between getting sick and playing target practice with Kylo's head and a water bottle, it hadn't occurred to you to take in your new surroundings.

On top of being more spacious than any bathroom you'd ever been in - with the exception of the luxury hotel Kylo had caught you in, back when you'd actually been putting some effort into avoiding him - the floors were a rough marble, white washed, bearing resemblance to a mountain face. The walls lined with the same distressed wood as the bedroom. The his and hers sinks were encased in a marble vanity topped with the same marble as the floor. In addition to the enormous jacuzzi tub there was also a walk in shower on the other side of the bathroom. A vanity with a padded bench seated before it. Full length mirror near the door. And the finishing touch; a spherical chandelier hanging down from the middle of the ceiling that cast a warm glow around the room. 

You'd seen the majority of the house earlier when Vicrul and Ap'lek gave you a tour - with the exception of the Knights bedrooms and the basement that supposedly functioned as Ap'lek's workshop - it wasn't a secret how nice it was, but when you stopped to actually take it all in you found that you were doing more than just passively observing it. You were, if only a little bit, allowing yourself to think of this as semi-permanent, rather than just a place you were plotting to escape from. 

"You okay, angel?" Kylo murmured, the low tone of his voice rumbling in his chest, vibrating against your skin. The concern evident in his tone. After all this time you were relatively certain you'd made it clear you didn't mind Kylo's rough around the edges ways, but you'd seen the heat in his gaze. The fire burning there. He probably hadn't felt much more in control than you had. Considering he knew nothing about your plans to escape, maybe he attributed your quietness to being overwhelmed. 

If only he knew you were beginning to cross the bridge from panic to acceptance.

You nodded, looking up at him through your lashes, your eyelids starting to feel heavy wrapped in warmth and the sweet smell of the water. "I'm fine. That was...intense." That was one word for it. But it wouldn't be the first time he managed to change your mind about monumental decisions or life altering realities with sex. But this hadn't just been about the psychical. The roughness of his possession. Things had changed and shifted in a matter of minutes because you finally understood the depth of his desire to keep you. The obsession laced with genuine feeling. 

I'm never letting you go. You're mine. Forever. 

Kylo didn't make statements like that lightly. It wasn't a sentiment said in the moment. You'd felt every single word soaking into your skin under the intensity of his gaze, knowing that he had no intention of ever letting you go. 

And forcing yourself to admit that you didn't want him to. 

You felt him nod. his quiet sigh before he shifted his hold on you, pulling you back so he could meet your gaze rather than continue to allow you to hide against his chest. You felt his fingers graze the tender mark on your neck from his teeth; the small mark he'd left in your flesh in his efforts to claim you. "This is all new to me, too. I know it must seem like I have it all figured out, but I don't. No one aside from Alexander has ever mattered to me the way you do. I've never been...so fucking obsessed with someone before. If I were a better man, I would be selfless enough to have let you go. Let you rebuild your life in peace after I destroyed it. But I'm not. I need you. And I need you safe."