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secrets

recap~

harry laughed at that and continued playing the game until both of them didn't have any questions, they were almost half way done with the game and louis had gotten quite some information about him, apparently, harry was 19, turning 20 in a month, he has a big sister, is the prince of the kingdom of asterin, has been in love once and he's bi. the last point didn't shook louis as much as he thought t because because maybe louis did see it coming.

on the other hand, harry got to know that louis was 20, he was going to turn 21 in december, has a younger sister, he is the future king of the kingdom of caspian, been in love once and he is gay. harry out of curiosity asked louis, "so tell me something about your parents"

as soon as louis heard that, he went stiff at that moment he really wished he wasn't near harry so that he couldn't feel the stiffness. but as they were sitting like they were tied up to each other, harry felt it. the only thought going on his mind was 'what happened for him to act like this'

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T//W; MENTIONS OF RAPE AND RAPE. IF YOU ARE NOT COMFORTABLE PLEASE SKIP THE PARAGRAPH. I WILL MARK THE LINES WITH '*' AND END IT WITH '**' 

louis was thinking about how to dodge the question but at the same time there was this type of force that made him change his mind and think 'fuck it, what's the worst that can happen even if i tell him?' so he decided to tell him.

"so you really wanna know?" louis started and continued seeing harry nod his head with a bit hesitation. "okay here goes," he took a deep breath and started "i was just 14 years old when i discovered i was gay, i tried having relationship before with this one girl that went to my school, her name was elenour but it ended really badly. we started dating a month after i turned 13 and whenever she tried to kiss me or come near me, either i would push her away or go away myself. i didn't really knew why i was doing this because she was my girlfriend after all, so i decided to do some research and went to the library with my friend liam, i found about 3 books about this and found out i am infact gay. at first i was scared ,scared f how my family would react, scared of how my girlfriend would react, scared of what the whole kingdom would say, what would my friends say? but as i saw liam coming over to hug me, i knew that at least he wouldn't leave my side. 2-3 days later, i broke up with elenour and while she kept asking why i was doing this i kinda blurred out that i was gay. so as a revenge she told our whole grade about that and everyone picked on me and called me homophobic names. in the end only two of my friends remained by my side, liam and zayn. i was so grateful for them to be there for me, i still am." as he stopped to take some time to breathe, he saw harry with a sad expression on his face, louis scoffed and said, "this isn't even the worst part." harry's head jerked up to meet louis eyes which were filled with fear, sadness and un shed tears. louis took another breath before continuing, "as you know, my birthday is christmas eve, i decided to tell them after new years'" 

"2 days after new years i finally decided to tell them, we were sitting at the dining table and my father was a bit late, when he came around, i told everyone that i was gay.  i thought if they were angry with me, they would scream or shout but what happened next was definitely not what i expected. my father threw his plate full of food across the table to where i was sitting and i swear if i hadn't moved on the perfect time, i would have been dead by now. he got up from his seat, came to me and dragged me to my room all the way pulling on my hair harshly. once we were there, he threw me in my room and locked door saying ;till the time you understand that you are not a faggot you will not get out of this room; then he left me there crying for the next two days. the only people who came into my room were my mom, sister and one of our maids who worked in my room. too bad she had to move from here, i miss her terribly." by this time louis was in the verge of busting into tears, harry sitting there with a shocked expression on his face. he was feeling so bad for louis, he wanted to hug him but couldn't because he thought he would freak louis out by the action. " a few weeks later my father went on some business work to the other side of the country leaving me free for 2 months." he continued with a shaky voice. "i was really excited and headed out to the market to get some fresh air, i couldn't believe i was in the fucking room for almost a month. there at the market i stumbled upon a boy my age who looked a bit confused, i decided to help him and oh how i wish i wouldn't have done that. anyways, i talked to the boy and discovered his name was nick and he just moved into my kingdom. i was happy to have a new friend, after awhile of hanging out i told him i was gay and he kissed me, can you believe it? he fucking kissed me. i didn't know what to do so i started kissing him back slowly, after about 2 minutes he pulled back and smiled at me. i didn't hesitate to smile back and we started secretly dating, well i told my mum about it so it's not completely a secret. well everything went completely fine for the next one and a half month but one day when we were in my room, things got a little too heated with nick and he pushed on my bed and climbed over me. before we even could do anything my father came barging in my room and got angry as soon as he saw me and nick that way. he was boiling with anger. he angrily pulled nick from me and threw him out of the castle.

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he suddenly came back in my room and locked the door but i did not think that this would happen, he came towards me and slapped me few times then suddenly his hands moved towards my pants but i didn't realize what was happening, my cheeks were stained with tears and he suddenly pulled my pants and boxers down i cried more loudly. he just said ; you like this don't you, im gonna give you what you like and you are going to feel very good after this ; then he took off his pants and started pushing his dick into me. i screamed and screamed but no one heard my cries, i cried, tried to push him off but nothing worked, i was just 14. after about an hour he was finished so he just got up and told me to keep my mouth shut about this and walked out of the room locking the door and leaving me like that. i cried for about an hour then went to take a shower and i tried to wash everything up and then i lied on my bed and cried myself to sleep. 

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this continued for about 5 months, he would come to my room late at night then rape and and leave like nothing had happened but when i turned 15 i was tired of this and  i told my mother, she sent me to my aunt's for a few days, that was the first new year i spent without my family. then, when i got back, my father didn't bothered me anymore he didn't even looked me in my eyes and acted like i didn't exist. i told mom to not tell my sister about this and she agreed because it was for the best for her. it was the first time in years that he talked to me today and that was too marry me off to a girl i didn't even knew till today. i ofc denied and he grew angry on me. i left the palace even before the guests left and i think i am going to spend the night here as the sun had already set and walking through the forest is dangerous at this hour." 

by the time louis finished, both him and harry were in tears and harry not being able to say anything, just hugged the crying boy in his arms and rocked him a little. both of the crying boys found comfort in each other and stayed like that for some time, neither saying a work, just happy in each other's warmth. a few hours went by and when harry saw the time in his pocket watch he watched in horror as the clock showed 9:30 pm. he started to leave and stopped when he felt the smaller yet older boy clinging to him like his life depended on it. he woke him up and told him he was leaving but louis told him to stay, after much of his protests, when he saw louis was in no mood to leave him, he sighed and picked him up like he weighed nothing and brought him to the double bed at the left corner of the room. harry was glad he chose the double one instead of the single one. he layed louis down on the bed toward the wall and took off his shoes to make him a bit comfortable. he slid down next to louis who started clinging on to him. harry just smiled and  wrapped an arm around him and tried to get some sleep but even after many tries, neither of them could fall asleep in those uncomfortable clothes. as harry hot up to check if he by any chance had some clothes around, louis stopped him by gripping his shirt tightly. harry just placed his hand on louis' back and whispered softly in his ear, "i am just going to get us something comfortable to sleep in love, don't worry" louis heart fluttered at the nickname and decided to leave harry for a minute while nodding slowly. harry got up and entered the washroom connected to a small closet and sighed in content when he found some pjs lying there. he grabbed one pair for him and quickly changed then took another making his way to louis. when he saw louis laying cuddled in the sheets, he didn't want to wake him up but when he saw an irritated expression on his face, he softly pulled on louis' arm to give him the stuff and motioned him to the washroom. louis still a bit sleepy, made his way to the washroom and came back in a matter of 2 minutes. 

louis saw harry laying on the bed with the duvet covering him, he just climbed on the bed and hugged harry's middle and fell asleep with a smile and some dried tears on his face. harry on the other hand wrapped an arm around louis' shoulder and cuddled him close, drifting off to sleep with a big smile on his face.

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~ Kris xx