Dear Allison. ~ Allydia

001 - Dear Allison,

Dear Allison,

It has only been a few days since a beautiful, young girl left my life and left a huge black hole inside of my heart. It has only been a few days since you left this earth. It has probably been the worst couple of days that I've ever had to live trough.

"That jacket is absolutely killer,' remember those words Allison. Those were the very first words that I've ever spoken to you. You came into our school as the new girl and as responsible as I felt to help you, I walked up to you and started a conversation. I was the most popular girl of the school and it was my duty to find out if the new girl was a danger to me or would be good for my status. Only god knew how it would end. I never knew that it would grow out to this. I never knew how much I would start to love you and how much I would need you. I never knew that this new girl, Allison Argent, would start to mean the world to me once we got to know eachother. Allison, I miss you so much and I wish I could go back to the start. I wish I could have warned you in some way, I wish I could have protected you. I wish you were right here, next to me, smiling and telling me everything's going to be alright. I know I'm not the only one who wants that.

Scott doesn't talk to us anymore, he just sits in his bedroom, all by himself. Even his mom can't get him out of there or get him to talk to her. He misses you like crazy. Stiles still blames himself for your death, because he thinks he was the one that let the nogitsune in and that's the reason that you're not here anymore. But I think we both know he had no other choice than to let that monster in. It would have caused his own death and I know that you wouldn't want that to happen. Kira doesn't know how to act around all of us. She feels guilty because her mom summoned the Oni that killed you. I told her not to blame herself and give it some time. She feels bad that she can't really comfort or help any of us. I guess the McCall pack really is full of heroes and people that want to save and help everyone, right? That's exactly why I love it so much. Because you guys are the most selfless and loving people I've ever known. I didn't have anyone like that in the past and I'm so, so thankful to have met all of you. I'm just very lucky I guess.

Allison, I know that the sun will always rise and shine her beautiful light over this sad town and I know that I should be lucky to live yet another day on this earth because you couldn't, but I can't. I can't Allison and I'm not sure if I can ever enjoy this life again without you in it. I need you to hold my hand again, to tell me how much you love me and that everything's going to be fine as long as we got each other. I need you to hug me one last time. I still need to thank you for everything you've done for me. Allison, you literally saved my life, you changed it in any good and possible way and I'm so thankful for that. You were my best friend. You ARE my best friend and I can't live without you. This black, empty hole inside of my heart can never be filled. I can't be fixed.

Yours faithfully,

Your best friend Lydia.