Apathetic

Ch. 3

At the crack of dawn the sun peaks out from behind mountain tops. The first rays of the sun grace the Earth. As well as the clouds become lit with a fabulous, warm light as the rising sun announces the coming of a new day.

A new day. A hopefully good and promise day for Kotoha where he will come and play with her.

The little petite girl is crunching down by the same river she always go and grabbed the bucket she placed in the river to see if she got any fish. No luck. She put the bucket back inside the river and lay on its side so the fish may get in. Although she has to stay by the river and watch the fish going in and quickly take it but she can't as she's really worry about her new friend possibly coming.

'I wonder if he's actually coming...he pinky promised me....'

Kotoha has been waiting for him for at least half an hour now. At this time she could've been sleeping on her comfy warm futon. If today wasn't the day for her day with him. However, he hasn't shown up. She even woke up much earlier than she expected since she was really excited to hang out with him again. She couldn't wait to play with him after the fun they had yesterday.

But he isn't here.

'I wonder he's meeting with his worshipers at this time?'

The little Kotoha look up in the golden color sky and sigh.

"I guess he's really not coming. He must've not want to waste his time this early to play with someone like me. I am so stupid..." she took out her finger from the river and dry on her green kimono then stands up.

"I guess I have to go home then..." she began walking her way to her home wondering if her mother is up and hopefully making breakfast at this early morning.

Suddenly, she heard some small rustling coming behind her. She immediately turns around hoping it was who she think it is but to her disappointment it was a small squirrel with an acorn on its hand and nibbling it.

"Oh....I thought you're him." She said with a sad smile on her face. "I was really hoping you are....." she kneels down to meet the squirrel's level.

She takes a look on the squirrel who's still nibbling on the acorn. It looks a bit bigger than any other squirrel she encountered with. Especially in the stomach area.

"Hey there cute squirrel. Are there babies inside of you? Mama told me once you see a squirrel with a bigger stomach that means there are little more squirrels inside." She smiled brightly.

The pregnant squirrel pays no attention to her as she's focusing on the acorn.

"I wonder what is like having babies inside of your stomach? It must be heavy and a lot of work to carry people and make sure they are taken care of. I heard it is a lot more responsibility when are babies is out from the mother." She lay on her tiny belly with her legs sticking out while her arms laying on the ground to support her.

"I always wanted to know where babies really come from. Mama told me it comes from the mother but I asked her how did the baby got there in the first place. She told me she won't explain to me any further until I am old enough to understand." She pouts

"I don't know why she won't just tell me. I don't think I'm that dumb to understand. Yes I can be not smart but doesn't mean I can't learn. Kinda." She huffs as she closed her eyes then look at the pregnant squirrel.

"Are you nervous of becoming a mother? Or nervous of having your babies? I heard being the first time mother can be a scary experience to go through. You don't know what will happen with you and your babies and it can be hard to handling them. New motherhood would be 'chaotic', 'tiring' and 'stressful'. However, you will know what to do once they came out and you will protect them at all cost even your own life. Even if you're afraid. Remember, being brave isn't the absence of fear, it's being afraid and doing it anyway. That's what my mama told me when she had me." She gave a calm smile but a question pops out of her head. "Is there a father? My mama said there has to be two parents: mom and dad in order to have a baby."