"I want you, Sir. Please. Make me yours." I hear myself say. The buzzing in my ears became louder and I feel as if I am on the verge of a panic attack. What if he doesn't want me? Or he is just like Him?
"I will. But first I need to know you. I need to know the boy behind the hair. Come to my home tonight at ten." he says and stands to leave. He grabs my face and kisses my cheeks before leaving nodding at Hunter and Master Jace.
"Wait!" I said and grab his hand. He turns around and stares at me.
"Yes?" he says.
"I need your adress or number so I can find my way to your home." I tell him. He smiles down at me and holds his hand out for my phone. I hand it to him and he places his number into my contacts and walks away. I blow out some air and sag down into my chair.
"Wow." Hunter says and fans his face.
"I could feel the sexual tension all the way over here." he says and I chuckle under my breathe.
"He's so intense. I don't know what to do or how to handle him." I tell them and sigh.
"What are you talking about Adrian? Handle him? You are no stranger to this lifestyle. You have had different partners and know each one is different and have different needs as you do. You find your happy medium." Hunter says.
"I haven't had a partner is almost three years Hunter." I tell him. He gives me a look and sighs.
"Adrian. Let me tell you something. You do not simply wake up one morning and forget how to submit. You have been in this lifestlye probably since the second time you had sex. You researched it. Practiced it. Lived it. Hell Adrian you put on shows for it and paint and draw it. It's in your blood and what you crave. You can't simply forget how to Adrian." he tells me and smiles. I reach out to him and grab his hands and smile.
This is why Hunter is my best friend.
"Thanks Hunter. I'm just really nervous I guess." I say and sigh.
"Listen. You'll be okay I promise. Master told me that Dewayne is a good man. Intense yes; but something you can handle. He'll take good care of you and knows a little of your past but not to much. You have to explain what happened to you to him tonight or soon. Don't leave him in the dark because if he triggers something in you you know it's hard to bring you back." he says in a serious tone. I nod at him and stand to leave.
"Don't worry I will tell him. I need to go." I tell them both and kiss Master Jace's cheeks and Hunter's.
This time will be different.
Dewayne will show me to light and I will leave the darkness behind me.
Please let me be right.
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Peeeewwwwwwww a short filler chapter before the real stuff happens. Yes it isssss shooorrrttttt but i feel as though it needed a filler before things get real ;) remember tooo...
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Surrendering
RomanceAdrian Adare was a submissive. He has always known of that part of him and embraced it fully without shame. Living his pleasures on the darker side was just the way he liked it. But one Dominant almost destroyed him and for 3 years he quit the lifes...
