Shock My Love! ( An Ace Frehley/Tommy Thayer Love Story)

Chapter 7-What Have I Done?! & Realizations (Ace POV)

A/N: Another Chapter, I am on a roll! Thank you so much for reading! Hope you enjoy!

"You fucking agreed and signed contracts and all!! It's a done fucking deal! I was given the task of helping you re-learn all this, and I have done my absolute best. I just can't take this anymore...between you and Peter and especially you. I'm done!", Tommy's chest is heaving, and his eyes are shiny with tears.

"Tommy, what are you saying?", at this point I am on my feet and things are finally starting to click in my brain....

"Do I really have to spell it out? I quit! You don't need me here! You don't want me here! Why I love an asshole like you, I don't know!", he clamps a hand over his mouth in horror at what he just said, and my eyes are as wide as they can go.

"Tommy, you...you love me? I-I..", I am stunned but finally it all clicks all these weird feelings, the sparks, how he's always on my mind. I am in love with him.... I am so in love with him, and I've been hiding because I don't do this, and I've been masking my feelings.... but it all makes sense and now I'm losing him.... I am so fucking stupid & blind!

"Ace, it's clear you don't feel the same way.... I don't know why you hate me so much. Peter has been downright evil, but it hurts more here, because its YOU. I love you, but this hasn't been easy...you haven't made it easy. I thought we could at least be friends, but you won't let me in. No not at all. And I think that...I think that I quit as Kiss' Manager! I'm sick of this!! I'm sick of YOU!!", Tommy sobs as he turns and quickly packs his guitar in it's case.

How the hell could I do this to him?!! "Tommy, p-p-please! Don't do this...please don't go.", I choke out. He continues to sob, and he straightens up and looks at me and the pain in his eyes.... pain that I caused.

"Oh, so now you want me to stay?! Why? So, you can just ignore me?", he glares at me and sighs heavily. Oh, my heart! "Well Paul Daniel Frehley, I hope your happy with yourself." And he finally leaves, slams the door, and heads out into the pouring rain.

I am rooted to the spot and I finally shake out of stupor and go after him...he's pulling off and I ignore the fact I'm getting soaked try & stop him from leaving.

"Tommy, Tommy please!! I'm sorry!! Please.... god, please....", my tears mix with the rain, but he doesn't seem to hear me and if he did...well, it's my fucking fault that he's ignoring me.... it's the least I deserve breaking his heart. He drives off and as I watch him go, I watch my heart go with him...

I stand there, soaked thru and will him to come back...will my heart to come back to me but he doesn't...he won't.

I head back inside and immediately curl up in the floor and sob my heart out & scream. Why?! I realized too late it seems that I loved him, that I love him. It hurts so much, because now I realize. All the times I'd look at him and just stare without his knowledge and when he'd shook my hand at Unplugged and I felt sparks. His smile, which I hadn't seen a true one since the reunion meeting...but still his smile could light up a room and then some. But I burned him in the worst way...My attitude towards him has cost me...and now I wonder how I can fix this? If I can.... He's said he's sick of me and my bullshit...and no Tommy certainly hasn't had it easy. Masking how I really felt and not admitting it...now he's gonna quit as manager and it's all because of me. I am an ASSHOLE to say the least. 

I manage to gather myself enough to head upstairs to my bedroom and change out of my clothes into a t-shirt and sweats and curl up in a ball hugging a pillow tightly to my chest as I continue to cry...Wish it were Tommy I was hugging to me instead...wishing however, does not solve anything. What the hell have I done? Maybe to I should try & talk with Peter? But my chief priority is Tommy...

Somehow, I must get my heart back.... I have to try & fix this & FINALLY open myself up to him. He probably might not believe me, and I can't blame him, but I must try.... I must...I cry myself into an uneasy sleep...

A/N: Hope you guys enjoyed this chapter! Can Ace fix things? At least now he's realized what his attitude has cost him...and he's realized he's in love with Tommy and is at least admitting it to himself....It will all work out, I promise! Stay tuned!