Shock My Love! ( An Ace Frehley/Tommy Thayer Love Story)

Chapter 8- Please Reconsider & Take Some time (Tommy Thayer POV)

A/N: Yes!! SO happy I got a new chapter out!

"Wait your wanting to what again?", Paul asks. Currently Paul, Eric aka Fox, Bruce, Gene, and I are holed up in the study. The kids are playing on the floor totally oblivious as to what's going on, but I digress.

"I said I think I should quit as band manager for Kiss. I-I- just can't do this anymore.," I state quietly but sniffle.

"Tommy no...no don't do this. Please.", Gene says. I am so torn, not so angry anymore as I was the other night, but I am so hurt because of Ace...Ace who still won't leave my thoughts...I am so tired, mentally, and physically. I haven't slept...I can't. I still very much love him despite how things went down between us, but I need time. I just can't face him...

"This is mainly due to Ace, isn't it? What exactly happened the other night? I know from what you'd said things had been tense between you and him.", Fox looks concerned with his brows knitted together.

I sigh heavily, "Yes, it is mainly because of him...Oh Peter too, but Ace well...I we had a fight...mainly I did all the yelling. I told him I was sick of his bullshit, the stand-offish behavior, the barely talking to me and not even looking at me. I was just so angry...I think it's best if I'm not around him or anyone...", and here I break down and just sob. I feel tiny little arms wrap around me and it's Paul and Eric's two kids, a little girl and boy.

"Why Uncle Tommy upset? Don't crwy Uncle Tommy, Pease?", little Jessica (That's the name of the little girl) pipes up in her little angelic voice.

"Yeah, Uncle Tommy, no cry...", Paul and Eric's son Zach pipes up. Both kids look so much like their parents and it warms my heart at how sweet they're being. I can't contain the thought of me wishing it were mine and Ace's kids comforting me.... but that will never happen.

"Zach, Jessica why don't you go play some more while we talk to Uncle Tommy and try and cheer him up. I promise Uncle Tommy will be ok... I know your sweet little hugs help. Ok?", Paul asks eyes soft as he eyes his kids.

"Ok, daddy!", they pipe up as they climb off my lap and resume their positions in the floor coloring and playing. Paul sighs before turning back to look at me...

"Tommy your upset and understandably so...but I've known Ace for more than 20 years...even if he was jealous and resentful of having to learn from you, it's still not like him to act like that. Still, too you absolutely have every right to feel as you do. Please, please take time out for yourself, as much as you need and don't make such a hasty decision. You're the best manager we've had since Bill Aucoin, but more than that.... you're our family."

"Ugh, maybe your right...I really need to take some time for myself. And I will think about it. Think about things. It just hurts so badly, and I was so angry the other night, but now that I think about it...well, Ace did look at me. He looked stunned when I blurted out that I loved him. It's not how I wanted to tell him at all, but then there were the strangest things what also happened and to be honest I haven't really paid them much mind. When I exploded on him, he ended up almost begging me to stay and then when I left...I swore I heard him shouting something above the rain, something maybe about him being sorry?", I sigh. I'm fuzzy on the details because I was so terribly upset. I'm not sure what any of the strange things I didn't really pay attention to mean, if anything.

"Tommy, believe us we understand. Now please, please go take time for yourself like Paul said and think about things. And try & get some rest, ok?", Bruce says from his place beside Gene who has his hands caressing Bruce's baby bump. I sigh again, I want so badly to have that.... I wish that were Ace and Me....

WE hang out for a while and it manages to help, at least somewhat and when darkness falls and it starts getting late, I head home. On the drive home, and of course this happens as I am listening to classic rock radio, but "Shock Me", starts playing. Ace's song.... why? It's like seriously? Still, I picture his hands dancing across the fret board and then that segues into his fingers dancing across my...Tommy, Tommy no don't go there!

Ace's singing voice to me is like magic and I can't help but torture myself by listening to this song, I just need time to breath...I can't face him, not yet and even after some time.... I just don't know overall if I'll ever feel ready to face him.

Finally, I arrive home and head straight for the shower, groaning as the water hits me. I really hope I can get some sleep tonight; I haven't really slept very much in days and I know I look like shit. After I shower, I crawl under the covers and after awhile begin to drift off, my thoughts very much on Ace....

A/N: Hope you guys enjoyed this chapter! Fixing to start work on chapter 9, which will be Tommy's dreams or are they really glimpses into the future? Stay tuned!