𝐏𝐎𝐄𝐓𝐑𝐘 : 𝐌𝐘 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐒 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍 // 𝐁. 𝐅𝐎𝐔𝐑 - 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐋𝐄𝐓𝐄

𝟹𝟿/𝟸𝟶𝟶

6 years from now before I finally have my freedom.

6 longer years before that day come

6 years of serving him, and him only

6 longer years of sacrifice and pray

My question is if he still willing to wait.

Wait for nothing because we won't have an happy ending.

I thought that we are destined, but the god the father said : you are not meant to be.

I want you my child to serve me, me and me only.

6years will be worth of waiting? Nor a wasted of his time.

I know we can't be together as I thought it was.

I'm still hoping and praying that the god the father will change his mind.

I'm not questioning what I am destined to be with or to be someday.

I just don't want to hurt the man I loved.

But the fact that I will able to hurt him,

Its hurts me more , trice before he got hurt.

Hurting him the fact that I cant be with him.

Im not for him, his not for me

We are really not meant to be,

But I my self a stubborn child of god.

Still questioning and confused also asking why.

Why I thought he is already the guy I prayed and wish to be with

But the fact that I will served him for 6years I'm willing.

But the word : He can't have me and I can't have him is deep hurts me
deeply than I thought it be.

I'm praying that he is for me only, that we can be together as we want to have our happily ever after.

-Poem/Dairy
Date : April 25, 2021